I have realized

Well I came to realize that I have been doing right all along around here. I have been reasured from alot of folks at this point. It is hard to believe that when I first started going cheaper in life I was at 16 years old. I have not stoped at all thru the years on alot of things. I got real cheap and tight when I first got up here to NY State also. Between the bargan rack that has moved several times thru the store and a few other things also. I can remember all the screaming and the arguements that have went on over the past almost 16 years also. And I have got alot cheaper since I have moved up here. Clarence racks, bargin racks, garage/yard sale hopping just to make ends meet around here with Child Support going out on top of it all. Yet I still manage to get blamed for supposadly being a "Rich Bitch" in some folks eyes and words. When myself and my Husband have been struggleing thru the years even though folks do not see it that way. I started with the home hair cuts years ago and even did my own thru the years while I was at it all also. I do not take pitty on myself nor my Husband at all. I do take Pitty on my ungreatfull Step Daughter who has for all the years has welcomed the B.S. from her mother and believed every word that she has said thru everything. I have never doubted my Husband all these years after what his Ex put me thru and Lied about with me. And to shove me out of a congragation for church is just plain nuts in my book but, somehow my Step Daughters mother found away to do it to me. I almost lost all faith in the church system totally when that happened to me almost 9 years ago. I do alot of things at home and on my own becuase of what has happened over the years thru no fault of my own. This is why I keep to myself alot of the times anyway so I do not get burnt at all. And with the statement from some folks of you will not catch me useing coupons PERIOD as long as they live. Well the coupons and a few other things have been money savers over the years to me. I always figured to save about 600 dollars a month between sales and coupons or eather one I have made the child support payment while my Husbands daughter was growing up and got the support. And I had the proof in my luggage that I carry for a purse of what was going out a month anyway and I still got called a liar eather way. Now since the support has ended I have no more obligations of to set money back for the ungreatfull child who never shown up for any reason at all nor questioned her mother on things also. Now I am letting things go and knowing what I went thru the girl is on her own after she told me to go F myself in so many words and I will find a place out of the hell hold trailer park that her father insisted that we live in after 16 years waiting on his Stupid daughter who believed all the lies and B.S. to get ahold of him. I have gone cheaper just so I can get out of here faster along with my Hubby. After all of these years I have kept my shut on alot of things and will keep my mouth shut on some things. I have alot of resentment towards some folks and I will not blame myself for it since I did give up my dreams once I got married. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well folks want to call me trash cool

All I have to say for the folks who call me trash is look across the street at 34 here in Sabre park then you get the real trash out of the world. Now I have writen letters to the managemen and called them to say what is going on and I have been ignored right along with the town clowns like they do much anyway pluss with all the neighbors that have complained also about the trailer and the useless kids and parents. Now I do hope that I get the one house that I looked at on Saturday so I can get the Hell out of this Hellhold of what the Caviliear Associates call a trailer park. The Section 233 has done squat also along with NY Government for to help anyone that fallows the rules here in the So Called Trailer Park also. Now after the past 16 almost 17 years of being here in NY nobody has don SHIT about SHIT around here to help out the folks that are left that sill try to plant flowers and other things in thier yards to make the place more friendly to other folks. Now I just turned on my computer about 12:45 pm and otherwise everything else is totally off at the power bars here in the can. I haven't even ran the washer today at all and I need to also for a few things to get caught up on. Since it is a nice day outside I could hang another comfy out on the line and wont do it becuase I need the break and so does the washer around here. This is what happends when you have fallen behind and folks who don't care how much the bills go up with them being here altogeather. I will never see a Damn dime out of the person who ran up the bills for me nor out of the park when the Lazy Bastard is working for them again. That is what I get for paying into the system and The Lazy Bastard can work off the books for Cavilier Associates and collect full blown welfare on top of it all. And NY State wanders why they are so broke as to the tune of 9 billion dollars in a deffacet. Gee if they thought of throwing half the folks that collect welfare in this God forsaken state that can work and make good money gee its time to revamp the system and a few other things while they are at it all. Now I will admit that I got smart this time and had extra money pulled back and could still eat off of what my Husband brought in off of 1200 dollars a month and not ask for any type of asistance from the government at all I see the problem here. It also helps to know what you are doing to keep the place stocked in food and other items also while you are at it. See being a truckers wife it does help somewhat to know what you use for the most part around the place in food and other items. When I can sit here and say that I eat alot of rice and pasta I mean it also right along with alot of chicken also. Now for this past Saturday I have got another 2 whole chickens for 79 cents a pound to feed the household. Gee there is a pop themomitor to tell ya when the dang thing is done and for about 4 dollars later for 4 -10 folks for dinner I wander why I got the birds in the first place. And about another 4 dollars for the trimmings and side dishes for the dinner nobody goes hungery out of my place at all. Now for trailer 34 here in Sabre park all they feed the children are Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches and that is it. The only hot meal they get is at school and that is if they make it to school at all. Otherwise the children are begging the neighbors for a hot meal eather way and the CPS workers have dropped the balla round here. Trailer 34 is another one that needs to be thrown off of welfare also since thier father makes enough for 4 people to eat and pay the bills in the household also. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

I must be crazy

I may just be crazy for the day. I have to redo a load of laundery around here thanks to the person who I threw out all togeather. So now I am overloaded for laundery again. And some folks wander why I drink at times. I am waiting on the washer and dryer at this moment and yes the laundery has been started for the day. This is just plain nuts around here at times still. I have realized that some folks that I know are just plain lazy and are slobs weather I like it or not. I refuse to be a maid or a slave to anyone at all. Well with me I try to keep busy anyway and what happened between January and Febuary was just plain out wrong around here. Now I normally do not mind cleaning at all around here and some things get cleaned once a week without a problem. When I have to clean on a daily basis becuase of a slob that is totally lazy you get sick and tired of the comments and the stupidity of the person saying that you are the slave eather way. Then to say after I took someone in and him saying that I was a woman and the stupid one out of the bunch. Then the person wanders why I threw his toush out of my place and had the back up just in case if he got a hair around some place that night. So now I have ended up cutting back once again around here for what was undone. It still makes me mad when someone knows that I had clean laundery in a basket waiting to be folded and puts dirty laundery with the clean. So on Monday I will be makeing a few calls to say the person is no longer here and that classifies as fraud right there for what is going on. That is why NY State is so messed up and broke also. With the folks on welfare not reporting where they are at and abuseing the system to the crocked Polatitions around here. Well with the economy in how it is at this point I have cut back all over the place around my place. And will cut back more alittle at a time around here. As I say it is overwellming if you jump in with both feet. It never works that way. Now over the years I have added at least one a day when I first started out around here of going cheap/frugal. Now I add one a week and get use to it that way. Like when I was cutting down on the laundery deturgant it took me at least a couple of months to get that part straightened out and get it where I wanted it to be. Some things are better done slowly anyway and it does pay off when you get alot of things streached out. Well I know when I started this again was becuase I was bringing in about 700 dollars a month and every penny counted around here. Now I know alot of folks who have lost thier jobs around here in the area and all over. I know that unemployment only gives you half of what you made while working. And it is hard at first trying to cut the fat out of the budget. And what works for my place will not always work for another. What I did was work on the things that I could see first in my place. I also asked what can I cut out or down on first thing. The paper plates, paper napkins, and the coffee out of the place were the first to go in my place. Also most of the cleaning with the paper towels went also around here while I was at it. When the dish rags got ratty enough and ot thin enough I started useing them to wipe down the couters and table off with them with very little cleaning soulution dilutted in water. Also what I did was notice that the lights always dident have to be on constantly and the dryer dident have to go niether. About late March early April when it starts getting nice out I start hanging the laundery outside. I have seen some folks use the net poles and tires on the bottom of the poles to get lines outside. Pluss I know the umbrella lines are a pluss with an old tire and concreate so you can sink the pole into it and there is the lines for laundery. You can get real creative on being cheap/frugal also. Just like in small spaces you get to the point where it does pay to start thinking ok I have plywood and I have some fabric and I can throw the fabric on the plywood and have the can goods hid while I am at it also. What I have done is make tucks like you are tacking up a favorite dress becuase it is to big at the point when you baught it it's the same thing but only with the corners. Also I have seen velcro used for the same thing to make sure it doesen't move around. When the fabric gets funky looking throw it in the washer. All I am saying is save money when you can. Then if something comes up then you can say I can. When you have a job that has been lost becuase of down sizeing or the doors close on you and land on unenjoyment it is easier to take becuase you have already had a good start on things. The Hippy laughs at me all of the time around here of course only becuase I start to thinking and I get cheaper around here. I always look around to say ok how can I do this better than what I have been doing. Just like with the seeds that Olliver doesen't eat it goes outside to the bird feeder out there. So it is doing double duty around here. Also when you start thinking ok it is alright to sit in the dark, I can hang laundery outside and a few other things you will see the power bill go down. It might take a few months and years to notice the differance in the bills when you start doing things it is well worth the screaming and hollaring that goes on in the mean time. Trust me I have a voice that can bend steel and then some. When I hit that point of going postal around here it gets worse. My Sister In Law just couden't stand it. IF I went stark calm after I had been hollering then it was the cue that the gaskets were gonna blow and feelings were gonna get hurt and there was no excapeing it. There were times were I could not hold my tounge in my head on being cheap around here. When I have to redo something that she just did and said it was clean when it wasen't everyone on the block could hear me. All my husband could say is that when the spit fire is right she is right and told people you eather do it right the first time or you are gonna hear about it. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Ok so you know

Since the 18th of last month I have had a bad month around here from the last posting that I made. Not includeing a death with it all. The week of january 18th I was not even home all week except one day and I supposadly get pictures of me and someone that I was not even involved with and diden't want to be involved with at all. The thing that was here wasen't worth my time nor marage nor me being cheaper than snot over at all after the slave and maid treatment that I got for takeing the lump on the sofa in. Now I have other emails from the "Jolted ex girlfriend" that I can share with you all. Now my Husband found out that I dident get all of the dishes that the lump rinsed off and said that they were clean also with cold water. If the ex wants the bump on the sofa go for it I don't need the crap from any man on earth after my ex husband at all. My Husband now knows that I will nail him if need be. And I just don't care. When I can say that I am running the household by myself around here and my now Husband is not here but on the weekends Gee I wander who runs the place nobody but me. So I go as cheap as I can when my husband is gone and tough. He doesen't say much when I eat soup during the week and other things also. He is not here to say what I do during the week around here at all. I will be cheap/frugal with my money eather way that I go around here. When I can save money I will around here nomatter what other folks say about it all. Some people I just do not like and would rather stay away from them. When I get told I do this in Porter Rico and my bill is maybe 50 dollars a month well guess what you are in NY State where the greedy bastards live. When my power bill is 150 a month if I don't watch what I so around here. So I got my way becuase the lump wasen't paying a red hot cent into the household nor chipping in at all. His ex wants him that bad have fun enjoy I don't want him at all. Men with short hair never had my intrest at all give me a man with Long Hair and less body Hair and I am a happy camper. At this point Mark(The Undertaker) could stand totally buck naked in front of me and I could turn him down colder than the weather outside in NY State at this point. Now I have always been the person who has asked can you boil what you just got and eat it. I do not spend at all. One of the things that I have got use to around here at all times. I will miss my Electrition for Wrestle Mania this year. Becuase one of us always ordered it, and the bloodier the better as the both of us put it made our days. I am sorry when someone blows out thier knees more than what I have in life for a job God Bless the folks. The Electrition and I always had an agreement on things in life we diden't have a pleasent job and blew out body parts quicker than snot if we were not carefull or broke bones. I broke the bones and he blew out disks in his neck and back with our jobs. No matter how mad we got at each other all we had to do was pick up the phone and bam we were there for each other nomatter what was going on or down in our lives. I really miss him eather way and still Loved the Man like a brother. As I told his Mom and "Dad" I will miss him and Thank You for letting me get the chance to know your son.

Maybe I think to much

I got to thinking while I was folding laundery and throwing in the next load into the washer. Well at this point I am not going over to the launderymat at all anymore thanks to my washer and dryer in the can. Pluss the Hippy won't let me go without a washer here also. Some have called me spoiled and some I refused to say at all. I get the last laugh here since I get alot of things done on my own without help. What gets to me is that I have offered a person some help just becuase. I get shot down all of the time and no calls back if the person doesen't want to go or do something at all. So I gave up after this last go around. This has been going on since November of last year. After this go around I gave up. Now I refuse to wait on a phone call I will go out and do from now on. Just like I did lastnight, I went anyway and had a good time. All I have asked is for a call to say something instead of being ignored. Well the last call that I made to the person she asked what do I do with all of the quarter coupons that she had. I told her if she was useing the product to use the coupons when she went to the store. A quarter is better than nothing of course for saveings. Since the gal was left broke she doesen't consider to use coupons at all along with other things that she should have been doing from the beginning. Now maybe I hope I did get thru to her somewhat on watching every nickle going in and out. Alot of folks have had to lately. With all the job loss and benafits running out and some still haven't cut back totally for thier place alot of folks do not have a clue. I have been dealing with one vehical also for the past 15 years. It hasen't bothered me when the car/van goes down at any time at all around here. Also I have not had a brand new car at all. Some folks that is all that they want is "brand new" and that is it and you can't change thier minds niether. Well with me I just do not want the payments that others have out there at all. When I can sit here and say that I do save up my money to get things and may change my mind once I get to the point where I do have money for the things that I was saveing up for also. I would rather know that I have the money pulled back than not have it at all.

Getting some work done

Well I pulled out dinner for tonight at least. Pluss 2 loads of laundery also has beed done. So I figured to get to chopping onions in the food processor some for tonight then extra for later use in the week. It could be worse around here to say the least. I do not mind cooking at all for the place. Most of what I am cooking for today is off the knock off brands from the stores. There are times to get the knock off brands and there are times where there isen't. Sometimes the knock off brands are more expencive than the name brand foods. This is why I say look and compaire prices all of the time. Look at the tags in the stores for the ppp= price per pound. Now is the time I wish my Mother In Law was still here in person to kick me when possible and start teaching me in how she did everything. Even though I can hold my own thru the grocery stores and other places. Anyway at least food is in my place and the bills are paid. Pluss with so many on the unemployment lines today it pays to be cheaper in the kitchen and a few other places in the household. I was asked the other day in how I do it all around here. Well I do work when I can out of the can and in the can. Otherwise I am a housewife per say also. When I am out of a job or the Hippy is out I do not go after the cup of coffee out and cut back as much as possible around here. Now while I was at the store on Sunday one of the people that have been unenplyed lately I seen his wife get a cup of coffee in Tim Hortans. I would have cut that to where I could still shop and save money while I was at the store also. Then again they guys wife just doesen't think on things anyway since she is supposadly "High Class" to some of us that streach out our dollars in the household. When I started out of being totally cheap again I started wrighting things down on what I spent in the household and cut down the fat in the place where I could. The woman if you want to call her that doesen't walk to the stores nor to the bank it would be benieth her all togeather. What I would do in the winter if the honda was down when I had the honda I would walk to the bank and get a Large coffee for the walk back becuase I was cold on the walk back. I could not afford a cab at all at the time. And the coffee out was a treat to me anyway. If I go around totally getting radical on things to cut back on that nobody will like me at all in or out of the can. IF it was up to me I would be hanging laundery even in the winter and alot of other things. I still have enough hangers and a few other things here in the can. The outside lines never come down unless one breaks while I am hanging laundery. The same guy as mentioned he gets excited when I start in on something new around my place and wants to share what I have done with his wife and she sticks her nose up at me like I am worth nothing to her. When I am holding up Thier Children in a Funeral Home I see that I am more of a Parent to the children than thier Mother is. When the person who passed on has been there since before dipars and then some. Along with me, the Girls would be just crushed if something were to happen to me. As I call them My Girls becuase, I got them stuff from yard sales and garage sales and they loved it. I still like to go to yard sales and grage sales to this day and other friends coulden't believe all the steals and deals that I ended up with during the day of our outing. When I can get stuff used and discounted at rock bottom prices that still works I will use it untill it quits around here. Or so tatered that they wish I would get arid of it at all costs. Why get new when the old or used works just the same in my place. There are some people that it just bothers and I don't care. They do not live here and passed up liveing here all togeather becuase I am hard on teen's in a way, only becuase, I know what I did when i was 14 - 18 years of age. I was married at 16 and divorced at 18. Need I say more. Ok folks have fun and play harder.