I have realized

Well I came to realize that I have been doing right all along around here. I have been reasured from alot of folks at this point. It is hard to believe that when I first started going cheaper in life I was at 16 years old. I have not stoped at all thru the years on alot of things. I got real cheap and tight when I first got up here to NY State also. Between the bargan rack that has moved several times thru the store and a few other things also. I can remember all the screaming and the arguements that have went on over the past almost 16 years also. And I have got alot cheaper since I have moved up here. Clarence racks, bargin racks, garage/yard sale hopping just to make ends meet around here with Child Support going out on top of it all. Yet I still manage to get blamed for supposadly being a "Rich Bitch" in some folks eyes and words. When myself and my Husband have been struggleing thru the years even though folks do not see it that way. I started with the home hair cuts years ago and even did my own thru the years while I was at it all also. I do not take pitty on myself nor my Husband at all. I do take Pitty on my ungreatfull Step Daughter who has for all the years has welcomed the B.S. from her mother and believed every word that she has said thru everything. I have never doubted my Husband all these years after what his Ex put me thru and Lied about with me. And to shove me out of a congragation for church is just plain nuts in my book but, somehow my Step Daughters mother found away to do it to me. I almost lost all faith in the church system totally when that happened to me almost 9 years ago. I do alot of things at home and on my own becuase of what has happened over the years thru no fault of my own. This is why I keep to myself alot of the times anyway so I do not get burnt at all. And with the statement from some folks of you will not catch me useing coupons PERIOD as long as they live. Well the coupons and a few other things have been money savers over the years to me. I always figured to save about 600 dollars a month between sales and coupons or eather one I have made the child support payment while my Husbands daughter was growing up and got the support. And I had the proof in my luggage that I carry for a purse of what was going out a month anyway and I still got called a liar eather way. Now since the support has ended I have no more obligations of to set money back for the ungreatfull child who never shown up for any reason at all nor questioned her mother on things also. Now I am letting things go and knowing what I went thru the girl is on her own after she told me to go F myself in so many words and I will find a place out of the hell hold trailer park that her father insisted that we live in after 16 years waiting on his Stupid daughter who believed all the lies and B.S. to get ahold of him. I have gone cheaper just so I can get out of here faster along with my Hubby. After all of these years I have kept my shut on alot of things and will keep my mouth shut on some things. I have alot of resentment towards some folks and I will not blame myself for it since I did give up my dreams once I got married. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

The new goal in life

Now I have realized why I went to the cheaper side of life. I am done of being mad and totally Pissed off at the government and a few other people here in NY State. And came to turms that life just bites some of us in the toush eather way we go. Now that I am at total ease about some things around here I can go cheaper around here. I just talked with my one Niece and will call her back tonight. Now normally I do not get to the brink of being so mad that I am into tears that often around here and today set me off on the madder than Hell and into tears. Now I do not say this often and mark it down that I did say this is that my real parents have been devoiced for 34 years and I missed out on alot of things in my life PERIOD. The only thing I do regret out of my life is not haveing enough money to travel to see my Baby brothers after the whole thing going down. I do know that every family has the deep dark secrets out of life my family has them also. Some are not willing to stab ya in the back as much as some families are that are out there. I also told my step daughter that you better hope to God that your life is not as rotten as mine has been over the years and that I have extended my hand to ya bcuase I know what was said without saying it all. I was hopeing to have the relationship with my father under a differant name at one point in time. Now I have my chance and realized that what the Hell is in a dang last name anyway. I keped my madin name pluss my married name with this Husband without a problem. I can say that I can tell ya what happened to me will make some toes curl and then some without the first Husband at 16. So now I have a new lease on my life to go even cheaper without a problem to get the heck out of the Trailer Park that I have been stuck in for about 17 years. Trust me I can make it all work around here without help. But with todays word on what has gone on I have the Will and deturmanation to move on without the help at all. All I needed to do was talk with another person who understood my point and say it is ok get the world by the balls again kid that is how everyone raised you also. Now with some folks they will notice a huge differance in me after all of the years that they have known me. And some will day Dang it's about time also. I have already surpassed some on the being cheap anyway and I did need that. Now it is full blown I just don't give a damn on who I really hurt and I will be blunt and cheap all in the same ball once again. Today was the test and Damn it I am ready to take on the full world once again. So alot of folks will notice a differance in the blog from now on. And that I will be even cheaper than snot when it comes down to it from now on. I am out for me and screw the world from now on. At this point the only thing that I have on is the monster of my computer and that is it. I have cable for my other half and on Saturday nights for Chip Coffery for the Children that he helps out on his show. Well after this morning I can believe that my girls Mother has fed her a bunch of B.S. and she was kept in the dark on things in life. Now after 11 years of marrage I don't think I am getting a divorce from this one unless there is a totally rich Bastared out there who wants my damage goods in life. This is part of why I do not care of what others think of me and how I do things in my household also. I never realized thru my Life that I had back up also untill now with some of my family members on both sides. So alot of good things came out of today and I am appreciative of that. Now if I can get recipies and some other tips also on how others have servived in life I will try them out and not only that I will be the greatfull one eather way. As I told a person today I only have the computer on for the flipping radio and he was lucky at that. Otherwise I do not need the rest of what he was trying to sell me at all and I have been burnt out of other programs also. To get out on the net and to use the phone around here I have to keep the modem on. Otherwise the T.V. has been off since 730 this morning and I will keep it like that weather folks like it or not around here. I have perfect controle of my bills around here for the most part and I will be hanging laundery up also for the extra saveings. That is what some folks do not like about me at all is that I do not care of what is said all I know is what I do to keep up and like it. Now with some I do not care if they know if I am with child or not. Since some do not want to bother with me and thier father it is none of thier brains of how many children I have or not. It is thier loss and not mine on what is going on since they chose not to stay in contact with me.

Why I just don't

Well I haven't bothered to move since I haven't found a real house as of yet. Otherwise I would have told the Damn park to shove it by now. Pluss the only way to get to the park is to threaten of course and I think I have found the trick fo all mother loads around here. The worst that the Town Clowns can get me for is fireing a side arm in the town Limits and that is it. I have been running way to hard in the past week to put up with the B.S. out of anyone around here. The dog goes or another Lot Rent goes becuase of the crap of what he does. If he treats the dog like he has I can only imagine how he treats the children behind closed doors. Here I am getting back on my feet and had the dog and cat for the past 14 years around here and the bird was a fluke knowing if I diden't take him he would have been dead within a month. With 40 dollars later for the bird and knowing what to do for his seizures who else would have taken Olliver PERIOD. He has needed food and attintion and the spats have got less over a 9 month period of time while I have had him. The dog across the street has got squat over the same amout of time and barely enough food to live off of. I told the park straight out a 45 slug or you do something about it all NOW. My dog barked maybe 5 times this morning becuase she was stuck on the deck and that was it. My dog does not bark period around here becuase one of us are at the back door watching for when she wants to come in. With 3 dogs on one block they talk to each other and they all get into trouble for it. That is why there is no complaints about 3 houses dogs at all around here we maintaine our dogs Period. They don't get left out 24/7 at all. I have had dogs for most of my life and none of them got left out at all. When I was younger I had attack dogs. They were good gard dogs needless to say. Better yet I had to be there to call off the dogs when they were in the mode. Normally with the dog that I have I will stand out side or at the door and will not let this one out side longenough to cause trouble at all. When the Park rules say that a dog should not be out any longer than to relieve them selves and go back in then The dog at 34 is out 24 hrs a day and nothing is done then I start hollering and will do something. When the dog is barking at everything that moves around the block and I cant even let my own dog out and I can't even get out in the yard long enough to do what I have to do to fill the bird seeder then yes there is a problem around here. Just like on Thursday morning when I was trying to sleep. Olliver spoke up yes but the dog at 34 finished the cake when he woulden't shut up for 15 min after I uncovered the bird and told them about it the day before paying the Lot Rent. At this point in time the hour and a half drive woulden't bother me none to drop off a dog to be rid of it and hope that it bit one of the Slum Loards around here. The managements hands are tied and I know this and that is why I told her straight out you do something or a 45 slug will be inrtoduced to the dog and the owners weather they liked it or not around here. I already shot a man for a 4 million dollar bag drop deposit and never regreated it at all. I am all heart and nothing else in the world. I will do what my heart tells me even though my mind says differant eather way. I can not see an animal suffer becuase of the owner(s) of the animal who doesen't want the poor thing. Then to leave a dog out side in sub zero weather and the SPCA doesen't give a Damn when you call them on top of it all. Now alot of the time I will walk to the store if I have something light to get. It doesen't bother me at all untill a dog that is out and always barking at the least little thing that moves around here. The dog can bark and trailer 34 is getting broke into and nobody looks becuase the dog barks that much and that often. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Why should I when

Now last night I switched out a bed pan when there were at least 6 Lazy Ass People over at Mt. St. Mary's when I got in and before I left at 7 pm. The one nurse was spread pretty thin becuase of Lazy Ass people on the floor. The poor girl also freaked out when I wasen't there also. What does this tell you about the nurseing system at some places. I refuse to go into the cathloic health system all togeather at this point. I have to agree with my Sister who works for a Major Health Provider at this point that I shoulden't have to becuase of Lazyness and or lack of Money. Be thankfull you work PERIOD around here in Western NY. At this point I should be home takeing care of my own Mother since she is in the hospital per say also. When I say home is meaning as in Illinois. I may be the squirt out of the bunch but, still need my Momma for advice. So now I am spitting mad and will start as of tonight do what is right or a bed pan will get dumped on a Lazy Ass nurse PERIOD. I admire still to this day Both of my Ex Sister in Laws Becuase they both are great nurses along with a few others in the world. Pluss I called the big guns out also to go with me. hey all thought that I was mean and nasty they haven't ran into my Husband as of yet. The Sargent in him will break out PERIOD and some will walk off the shift. That is what I get for being married to a chopper medic. Pluss after last night after what I over heard I don't blame 7 of the girls being PISSED OFF ON THE 5TH FLOOR OF ST. MARY'S AT ALL. When some are in the right Damn It I will stick up for ya.

Head is really spinning

Well after this one why shoulden't my head spin. Now car maintanace is a big key to make the car happy. Now I just got my van inspected just reacently and expected some things wrong with it. My thing is if you know someone is broke then why give that person a loan for a new car or van or truck. Well when these people bought thier van I knew they coulden't afford the repairs to it at all. That is the problem with forien cars today. The Honda cost me and arm and a leg pluss my first born in the shop fees the Masdas are worse. Now the folks are on disablity and are bringing in less than what I did working full time at Mc Donnalds per month 10 years ago. Anyway after one of my other Hippies was here also. Now I had fixed Mac and Cheese on Thursday and we have left overs today. Well he wanted a taste and he loved it. I diden't have the heart to tell him it was really homemade and then some. Yes I put my own twist on it as always. Now with the couple that was here hollering about thier car also bring in some assistance also. After all of these years niether one know how to shop for thier place also. All I can do is let my head spin at this point anyway. Well with everything that I get for my place it is about 200 dollars a month and that is includeing the dog, cat, and bird. Pluss the groceries and paper products also. It is not hard to do around here at all. So with coupons and sales pluss a few other things it helps out totally. Now with me I end up useing coupons eather way. Even with my Hippy he is printing out coupons for the week while he is gone. I must have trained him right on something around here at least. Free coffee for the next couple of months it works for me. Now that is over 300 dollars again in saveings. I know some who won't play with coupons at all. It is thier loss not mine. Now if the big names diden't wanna print them at all then they woulden't have. They print the coupons with the hope of someone not useing them. Then there are the folks like myself who use them and it does pay off. That doesen't include the can returns that some of us do also around here. I figure why should I let the state of NY use it and still be broker than ever. Now that I have figured it all out around here I keep getting broker around here thanks to NY State becuase the brain farts in Albany just don't give a Damn about us little folks that make the state. Well after next month I will be useing more coupons pluss cutting way back on alot more around here. Between all the cards and coupons and knowing some stores they like shoppers anyway. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Ok so you know

Since the 18th of last month I have had a bad month around here from the last posting that I made. Not includeing a death with it all. The week of january 18th I was not even home all week except one day and I supposadly get pictures of me and someone that I was not even involved with and diden't want to be involved with at all. The thing that was here wasen't worth my time nor marage nor me being cheaper than snot over at all after the slave and maid treatment that I got for takeing the lump on the sofa in. Now I have other emails from the "Jolted ex girlfriend" that I can share with you all. Now my Husband found out that I dident get all of the dishes that the lump rinsed off and said that they were clean also with cold water. If the ex wants the bump on the sofa go for it I don't need the crap from any man on earth after my ex husband at all. My Husband now knows that I will nail him if need be. And I just don't care. When I can say that I am running the household by myself around here and my now Husband is not here but on the weekends Gee I wander who runs the place nobody but me. So I go as cheap as I can when my husband is gone and tough. He doesen't say much when I eat soup during the week and other things also. He is not here to say what I do during the week around here at all. I will be cheap/frugal with my money eather way that I go around here. When I can save money I will around here nomatter what other folks say about it all. Some people I just do not like and would rather stay away from them. When I get told I do this in Porter Rico and my bill is maybe 50 dollars a month well guess what you are in NY State where the greedy bastards live. When my power bill is 150 a month if I don't watch what I so around here. So I got my way becuase the lump wasen't paying a red hot cent into the household nor chipping in at all. His ex wants him that bad have fun enjoy I don't want him at all. Men with short hair never had my intrest at all give me a man with Long Hair and less body Hair and I am a happy camper. At this point Mark(The Undertaker) could stand totally buck naked in front of me and I could turn him down colder than the weather outside in NY State at this point. Now I have always been the person who has asked can you boil what you just got and eat it. I do not spend at all. One of the things that I have got use to around here at all times. I will miss my Electrition for Wrestle Mania this year. Becuase one of us always ordered it, and the bloodier the better as the both of us put it made our days. I am sorry when someone blows out thier knees more than what I have in life for a job God Bless the folks. The Electrition and I always had an agreement on things in life we diden't have a pleasent job and blew out body parts quicker than snot if we were not carefull or broke bones. I broke the bones and he blew out disks in his neck and back with our jobs. No matter how mad we got at each other all we had to do was pick up the phone and bam we were there for each other nomatter what was going on or down in our lives. I really miss him eather way and still Loved the Man like a brother. As I told his Mom and "Dad" I will miss him and Thank You for letting me get the chance to know your son.

I got the Hippy off

I got the Hippy off and being locked out of the can for about 3 min here and got back in thank goodness I had keys within a couple of miles from here. I started cleaning after I got back in also while I was at it all. If I go with my instincts I know some folks diden't go out of town like I have heard also. Becuase I have ran into people at places while I have been out and went from there. Pluss there were a few clues as to why I say this also besides others telling me so. Well I do not mind a dark alley after the E Mails that were sent to me and I saved everyone and copied them also. Here I have not said a word to someone and I get accussed of something that I was not here for at all. I am still livid after over a month. When the Hippy and I left yesterday for a couple of places and I pretty much caught the person lieing about me. There are no pic's to back up someones toush at all.

In a message dated 1/21/2010 8:26:27 A.M. Eastern Standard Time, lionessa0000@yahoo.com writes:
I have some nice photos of yu two. Thanks for bring such a good friend Sarah. You should have seen your face in Walmart. Like marge said. That was priceless!

Now when You get an Email like this and the name is miss spelled altogeather what would you think. And this is who I got the bird off who would have not made it another week in her house off of at all. Now I threw her ex-boyfriend out also while I was at it all about 3 weeks ago. I really don't care about this supposad womans friends and thier thoughts at all. If I was at all concerned at all I would be a total wreck of what everyone thought of me. Since I could care less about what folks think of me it doesen't bother me any. I get repetitive and say so. That is how I have learned in what I do. Yes I can teach folks how to be cheap or frugal eather way. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Just can't stand for somethings

Ok I had to make a trip to walmart again today becuase of a thing that I have to go thru here. Well 5 dollars later and for 3 nights it just isen't worth it anymore. I am still not ready to make my own things yet for haveing a friend once a month no matter how broke I am around here. Sorry for those who make thier own sanatary pads for the monthly visit. Maybe it is the bucket with bleach water that I can't stand for or it is the easier to grab the bag out of the trash can is what makes it easier on me. It is like haveing the fecal matter on T.P. in the trash bucket all of the time and changeing it out. Well I change the bucket once a day at that time of the month anyway but still I prefure not to get sick nor have anyone totally grossed out at the fact of doing something just totally non since to the modern times also. Now I won't blame someone if they have homemade pads at home at all. There are just somethings like that I just won't do to save money at all. The bucket and the homemade pads are just out there for me at this point still to this day. When the others are much more sanatary than the homemade ones any day of the week. Then again what if you forget to wash them once a day then what is where I am getting at in todays world. Another thing is what if you live with all males in the place also. Ok so I know how to hide things without a problem at all. Most of the men that I have worked with were clueless on what time of the month it was for me at any given time when I did work with all men. I left no trace behind at all and I used the mens restroom most of the time anyway. There would be 2 of us cleaning and it made it easier on both. Ok folks have fun on the tidbit and play harder.

Well free and others

I have 5 free boxes of tea sitting on the counter and alot of lids missing. Go figure on that one. They were there 3 weeks ago and I already know who and why. Then the question came up of is Jose still there with ya. The Hippy is like no my wife threw his toush out 2 weeks ago and asked and reasked on alot of things and the lazy bum diden't wanna listen. Put it this way the management diden't blame me one bit at all. The lazy bum did the same to her in the office trailer. Now I am happy that I don't have to put up with the B.S. anymore around here. Not only that I did find out today that some of us are still doing better than others at this point. Pretty sick that some of us can sit back and still work on other things than go out side of the place to work. And others are getting thier collage education. Now I can really laugh becuase some of us got lucky. After all of the years of fighing my way up, being cheap, and streaching out the dollars I can somewhat sit at home and still worry but not totally here. What gets to me the most is that I can work from home and do what I have to do around here without a problem. Another thing is that now I have a palce full of food and my bills are all paid up to date also. Now with my one cousin she is so far into debt that she had her 16 yo daughter start working to pay the morgage on the house that they just spent way to much on. Now for years this so called woman has had no food in her place for niether her nor the child they have always went to grandmas house to eat and grab food over the years. I Never did that at all. I would rather starve than have it held over my head that I grabed food there. That is how I am and always will be. That is why I started with coupons and getting very cheap food to feed the household nomatter where I was at. Also I started out early trying to streach out the food in the place weather be in someones house or in my own. Pluss I always had children to feed also. So now all I can do is shake my head on alot of things still and go from there. A good friend of mine said this past week I always had a baby or young child hooked to my hip and she was right. So now that I have the place to myself do I want children yes is it top on my list no at this point yet. I will start looking for more free stuff when I do get prego of course. More coupons sure. It is in my nature to do so and be cheap as possible for the household and I don't care what others think at all.