Knowing I should have

Well I knew I should have baught the sofa over at Big Lots over the weekend and diden't. I was thinking of geting the van inspected first then to buy the sofa. Well niether has happended as of yet. Well I have 19 dollars on me and not for long when someone gets over here to barrow it tonight. I am just tired of lending out money and not getting it back untill when ever. Folks think I have money when I really don't at all. Well what happends is that the folks that barrow off of me think that I am rich since we make about 400 dollars more a month than what they get with thier disability. Well all I can say is I have been streaching the money out for so long that it has hurt eather way. It has about killed me to buy underware that I really needed and I do need more but now I just cant with the 19 dollars going out on loan.