The new goal in life

Now I have realized why I went to the cheaper side of life. I am done of being mad and totally Pissed off at the government and a few other people here in NY State. And came to turms that life just bites some of us in the toush eather way we go. Now that I am at total ease about some things around here I can go cheaper around here. I just talked with my one Niece and will call her back tonight. Now normally I do not get to the brink of being so mad that I am into tears that often around here and today set me off on the madder than Hell and into tears. Now I do not say this often and mark it down that I did say this is that my real parents have been devoiced for 34 years and I missed out on alot of things in my life PERIOD. The only thing I do regret out of my life is not haveing enough money to travel to see my Baby brothers after the whole thing going down. I do know that every family has the deep dark secrets out of life my family has them also. Some are not willing to stab ya in the back as much as some families are that are out there. I also told my step daughter that you better hope to God that your life is not as rotten as mine has been over the years and that I have extended my hand to ya bcuase I know what was said without saying it all. I was hopeing to have the relationship with my father under a differant name at one point in time. Now I have my chance and realized that what the Hell is in a dang last name anyway. I keped my madin name pluss my married name with this Husband without a problem. I can say that I can tell ya what happened to me will make some toes curl and then some without the first Husband at 16. So now I have a new lease on my life to go even cheaper without a problem to get the heck out of the Trailer Park that I have been stuck in for about 17 years. Trust me I can make it all work around here without help. But with todays word on what has gone on I have the Will and deturmanation to move on without the help at all. All I needed to do was talk with another person who understood my point and say it is ok get the world by the balls again kid that is how everyone raised you also. Now with some folks they will notice a huge differance in me after all of the years that they have known me. And some will day Dang it's about time also. I have already surpassed some on the being cheap anyway and I did need that. Now it is full blown I just don't give a damn on who I really hurt and I will be blunt and cheap all in the same ball once again. Today was the test and Damn it I am ready to take on the full world once again. So alot of folks will notice a differance in the blog from now on. And that I will be even cheaper than snot when it comes down to it from now on. I am out for me and screw the world from now on. At this point the only thing that I have on is the monster of my computer and that is it. I have cable for my other half and on Saturday nights for Chip Coffery for the Children that he helps out on his show. Well after this morning I can believe that my girls Mother has fed her a bunch of B.S. and she was kept in the dark on things in life. Now after 11 years of marrage I don't think I am getting a divorce from this one unless there is a totally rich Bastared out there who wants my damage goods in life. This is part of why I do not care of what others think of me and how I do things in my household also. I never realized thru my Life that I had back up also untill now with some of my family members on both sides. So alot of good things came out of today and I am appreciative of that. Now if I can get recipies and some other tips also on how others have servived in life I will try them out and not only that I will be the greatfull one eather way. As I told a person today I only have the computer on for the flipping radio and he was lucky at that. Otherwise I do not need the rest of what he was trying to sell me at all and I have been burnt out of other programs also. To get out on the net and to use the phone around here I have to keep the modem on. Otherwise the T.V. has been off since 730 this morning and I will keep it like that weather folks like it or not around here. I have perfect controle of my bills around here for the most part and I will be hanging laundery up also for the extra saveings. That is what some folks do not like about me at all is that I do not care of what is said all I know is what I do to keep up and like it. Now with some I do not care if they know if I am with child or not. Since some do not want to bother with me and thier father it is none of thier brains of how many children I have or not. It is thier loss and not mine on what is going on since they chose not to stay in contact with me.

I knew it would

Well I knew that things would blow up in my face and they kind of did. I have came to the fact of some of the folks around where I am at in NY State can lie cheat and steel around here. And I think I have seen enough of that side of life around here. And some of the folks have felt my Bluntness and being truthfull about things as of this week now. Pluss I need to apologize to my Father once I think about it and to my step mother also. Once I got older and started realizeing things and the why behind it all I started forgiveing alot of things that went on. Part of why I feel like the way I do is becuase I was always caught in the middle growing up that now it doesen't even bother me when I am still stuck in the middle of things when I am an adult. I just do the best that I can and take it out on things that are good for my household and myself. This is one of the main reason that I went to the Cheap side of life. And since there is no wrong way of doing it I have no complaints at all about it. Pluss money has always been tight around me so that is another reason I went to the cheap side also. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Got my list made

Well I got my list made yesterday morning while other paperwork was being done at the kitchen table. I knew I woulden't have much room with everything scattard about. My Hubby of course was shocked that my list was growing like a bad weed for the week. All I can do is tackle the list one thing at a time and go from there. I was suprized that I got as far as I did yesterday and I diden't have to lift a finger to take the garbage buckets out at all. So that was a good thing since someone else did it for me. Well alot of things are getting unplugged and turned off today around here once again since I was running behind all day yesterday and what suprized my Hubby was that almost everything was still turned off by the time he got back from loading. He should be in Indiana at the moment. Anyway I am off to start cleaning once again for today and see how much more I can knock off the list that is fairly cheap around here. Ok folks have fun and play even harder.

Well I am waiting

As I sit here and wait on my Hubby to get back here I have been doing house work and got a request for more cookies. With some of my kids I will do anything for eather way they all know this. Pluss I will make sauce for this weekend while I am at it all. I need to make the sauce anyway and let some of it sit for a while before I use it. What I will not do for my Kids here that I love dearly. Also the person on my mind I will carry into my place without a problem just because he is one of my favorites. Anyway now to see what I can do for at least 4 dozen cookies and go from there for Friday and the sauce. I will have this end of the Trailer park drooling and hawking around my place eather way before Easter. The answer is no to some children around here looking for a hot meal eather way and I don't care if they want a hot meal or not. Some children have parents to cook for them and if the parents don't have a clue as to how to cook that is not my problem at all. Well I will be cooking on the cheap and going from there also from now on. I don't care what others think about it. It is better than the Peanutbutter and Jelly sandwiches that some parents make for thier children all of the time and think it is normal and CPS here in NY State says it's ok for the parents to do so also. I have never seen a child get expelled from school and get rewarded with a Go Kart unlike the ones across the street from me. The boy is lucky if he seen maybe 4 weeks out of the school year to go to school. I have also heard that 3 quarters of the Niagara Whietfield school children are after this little boys toush also for what he has done. From what I have seen out of the Little Boy(15 years old) across the street from me I do not wander why that many children are after him to beat the heack out of him also. The boy has lost all of his friends and then some this year after the head lice that he has had and he refusese to take a shower or a bath during the week also. Now to give you an Idea on how the children are across the street from me are they wear the same thing for all week and are very dirty children. The girl has poped off with the woman across the stree hates me also when I diden't even know the child at all. I diden't like her and diden't know why untill she poped off at the mouth with that comment to me. With the father leting the children go and blareing the music the way he does gee I wander why I do not like all of them in the household at all. As one of the Park workers told me I was so loud that he diden't know if I was home or not most of the time. He lives across the street on top of the trash that out rules everyone and does not have to fallow the rules of the Park at all. With myself even with the Internet Radio going folks do not hear me at all during the summer bashes that I hold here at my place. The golden retriver comes over and says Hi to all of us also. That dog I do not mind coming over at all. Only becuase the dog and I talk while I am hanging laundery out from early spring to late fall around here. Also I know that the dog is a good baby also eather way I go. The one across the street is left out constantly and the park nor the SPCA here in the Niagara county of NY cares about it. But they would care if a .45 bullet goes into the dogs head. If some of us did that to our dogs then the whole household would be raided for the other animals also besides the dog. Now you know why I have to get out of here from the Cavalier and Accociates of Sabre Park. I can wright a book as of As Sabre Park Turns the later years. My Husband and another can wright a book of As Sabre Park turns the early years also. The innocent folks will have thier names changed while the rotten trouble makers of Trash will keep thier names around here. Yes I own a tin can persay around here and keep to myself. I have managed for almost 17 years like this and will keep it all up also. I have been looking into "Real Houses" also while I am at it to get out of here. If anyone wants to get into a LandContract with me I am willing to put a sum of money down and pay 450 a month and the taxes are on me as well. As long as if I ahve enough space to clear out the storage unit and keep it on the property I am fair game to almost anything. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Lots of laughs last night

Well as I sit here and think of what went on last night I have to still laugh at some of it all. Some things can not be explained to your HMO at all. Now that today has begun it is Monday and I need to get my list up and going so I can somewhat plot out the day of course. I will be eating leftovers from last night for the week. To some folks in what I am about to do is just wrong to them. Like I care at this point in time. The folks who hollar about most of the stuff does not live here at my place. Anyway I just checked out my balance on my card for Kmart and I am impressed on it at this point. I am well on my way to some stuff to get for the can or the house eather way I look at it. I will start shopping more over at Kmart here and they take coupons also on alot of things there. The trick is to get things on sale and with a coupon to save more at expensive stores. I have cards for many stores around here. If you can let the points or money build up and you can get money off of something in the long run. Like the one grocery store if you get 100 dollars in groceries you get 10 cents off of gas when you fill up your vehicals. Well you get the point on that. I have known some to get dang near free gas also from the perk. Just like with Kmart the money builds up on the card and then you can do some major damage in the store on alot of stuff. I was not going to waste the 15 cents that was on my one card to get it took off my bill. I will let it build up for awhile. Pluss I can do some major damage once a month anyway once a month shopping. It never hurts to save when you can. My Husband and I were laughing over the weekend about going shopping also. Some figure that all I do around here is sit on my toush when I don't at all. Things have to be done around here and I do most of the work anyway while I have the place to myself. That is why most of the things get turned off so I can work in the place and save money while I am at it all. Also the Hubby was saying that at least he will not starve in the truck nor in the kitchen around our place at all. I have been known to knock off between 5-100 dollars off the bills by useing the coupons and other things to get groceries also. Once you get use to doing something it is not hard to keep the habbit of doing to save the money at all. Just like when I started cutting back on the laudery items it was hard at first. I noticed a huge differance in how the items came out and much cleaner also by cutting things in half and useing an eighth of the laundery deturgant of what the bottle calls for. Some things need to washed twice with the dirt and the grime. When the water is just down right nasty you almost have to wash the load of laundery again. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well one ppv a year

I get one pay per view a year and the buff babies won this year. It has been good so far. At least by one per year I am not gonna hollar to much. It comes to be about 2 dollars a month for the year. Anyway today was a fairly good day I have stayed out of the stores for the most part. I did get the paper and that was it for today. So now to clip coupons for this week and go for next month to the grocery store totally. Well I feel sorry for the poor cashier who takes me this next go around. Well over 33 dollars in todays paper that I have clipped. Well that is not bad off of a 2 dollar paper. I haven't even looked at the sales papers yet. I am just wandering around here on how much I can save on the coupons this up coming month. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Another 2 weeks

I have about another 2 weeks before some family will be up. So I will be hitting the grocery store somewhat here next weekend. Well yesterday was a mess when I took my Husband out to do shopping for the truck. I did manage to get my 20% coupon I hope for the one store. Pluss I was over at Kmart yesterday also. I will be watching thier sales fairly well from now on pluss a few other things. Now normally I would have took the 15 cents off the bill and got to thinking of that one. Save up as much as I can on the card and have a big shopping trip for what I need from there and a few extras when I get enough money on the card. Tag the card up with the coupons also I will end up rakeing over Kmart. My card is good all over the place also. What gets to me about the stores around here is that one store has the Green Works laundery deturgant pluss bathroom cleaner, another store has the rest of the Green Works products. Not that I mind shopping around at all. I can say that once I do try out the Green Works deturgent I will let all folks know about it. Pluss I will be for the most part on the same page for the Product line in the place if I like it. Well in my place there are several folks that come over that have medical issues and it seems that the Green Works products do not bother them as bad as the others out in the stores. I sprayed one of the cleaners infront of a friend and it diden't bother his lungs at all. It is abit more money for the products I will admit to it. Also alittle goes along way so it is well worth the extra money for the products. As I sit here and think of all the things that I have done to save money and what I diden't get to yesterday also. And also knowing as of Thursday the windows will be open and I will be cleaning the carpets around here. Pluss hanging out the laundery while I am at it all. Most of the house work will be done this week I have the feeling. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

When it rains it poors for some

I got out to the reservation yesterday. While I was walking out the door from there to hit Walmart to look around my phone is going off. I didn't know if my Husband was gonna laugh or just blow gaskets. One of the hydrolic lines blew up on the trailer. I started laughing remembering what happened to the poor guy with the bailer that the one company I was working for. After I could keep a straight face again I asked how covered he was by the oil. The truck got it worse than anything. Well I was thinking of alot of grease relief for the one load of laundery. Anyway today I a ton of things to do around here that I am being really lazy for the moment to figure out where to start at. Pluss for dinner tonight I am pulling out sauce from the jar. I will be makeing my sauce here within the week at least. With family coming up it is easier to have the sauce made already. It is fairly cheap to make when you catch the makeings on sale at the stores. And there are some needs that I ahve to meet food wise. I do not want to agravate any health problems on my watch at all. It is how I am becuase I remember the peppers and the alergies that I have. So now for the next couple of weeks I will go thru the place and really clean around here also while I am at it all. At least for the middle to end of the week the windows will be open to air out the place also. It will be nice around here to see a clean place eather way I go. Yes I have started on that last week and have been doing it alittle at a time. I have no choice in the matter at all. Most of what I have to do is pick up and rearange the place. That is the hardest part of the whole thing. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well it wasen't hard

Well after last night I got to thinking of the question that was asked of me. Well I did ask for a favor from someone also and got blown off so I started looking myself. I have been like this since I was a child. So I started to praying and slept on it and sprang into action still tired and found almost what I was looking for. I will be sending an email out here before I get totally off of the monster on my desk. This is why I say if you can not find something in the phone book try the net and do a search on something or a person. Like I care if a person denies me for a request on some web sites. I will extend a hand when I can for a friendship. I found out thru a friend that I was a Grandmother also. I am just hopeing that my Husband hasn't just totally gave up on his Daughter at all. This is part of the reason I just don't want to move without saying something at all to anyone. And that is if I get a "Real House". So anyway today I have to get out to the reservation I am hopeing this morning so I can get back here for this afternoon. OK folks have fun and play hard.

Thinking of how cheap I can get

With the prices going up and I am wandering in how cheap I can really get around the can. I lead a very simple life and get to be as cheap as I want without problems out of anyone. It took me 5 years to really notice this now. It may be mean to say I do not have a rotten girl here in my place and with good reasons on my part and the Child did help in some ways by not wanting to come here to live. SO with alot of things I did replace the child with appliances that I could afford by cutting costs around here without her even steping foot into my place after she did call me Trailer Trash a few years back. I have went cheap/frugal for a reason and never bothered to move becuase things were going fairly well at the time also. Now I realize that there is a need to get into a better neighborhood once in for all for my own sake so I do not beat anyone to the point of murder charges. I have stuck to myself for that reason. Now at this point in time I have the push to make better and won something that I pay real taxes on at least instead of lot rent and owning a can that I will never own the land on. I have figured out ways of being really really dirt cheap and frugal at the same time without help. Some things will not change only get better in my book by useing coupons for all of the stores around me. Pluss streaching everything out to the limits also in what I do have around the can. Most do the double duty anyway and now there will be triple duty going down weather folks like it or not out of me. The barrowing of money has sease to stop as of this moment also around here. I know folks are struggleing around here and so are the rest of us that are fighting to cut everything down also. I have folks that do barrow money off of me and they do not really care if it is food out of all of my households mouths or not. When I say that I streach out the money around here it also means that I have streached out the grocery money also. I have 2 kitchens to run when some have one and have extra money coming in becuase of the food stamps that they get once a month. They are getting more than what I did about 9 years ago almost 10 now in food. 250 dollars compaired to 130 dollars that I brought in to feed a family of 2. I still haven't got any breaks since then niether also. So inbetween time I will start useing more coupons and going as cheap as possible for the food and other items for the 2 kitchens that I have to run. This is what just bugs me to no extent around here. Also what bugs me is that NY State government could give a flying rats behind on alot of us working poor. I have never heard of a sugar tax untill now. Like it matters for the folks on food stamps anyway around the state. You do not pay taxes on things with food stamps period. Now do not get me wrong here I do enjoy a soda or two during the week if that. Becuase coffee and tea get old during the day and sometimes you just need the bubbles to quinch your thirst. Ok folks more to come later and have fun and play hard.

Plotting for the day

I sit around in the mornings and plot out the day ahead. Pluss to start the day the news is going also. Some days I do not get to everything that I need to so it gets dumped into the next day. That is normal in alot of places. With myself I try to get as much done in the mornings as I can and that me. Some folks work better in the afternoon. It depends on the person and the household. Anyway at this point I will have most of everything off in the can once again today and off at the power strips also. When you get use to no back ground noise except the dog across the street barking it is not so bad. Ok folks I have to get a move on around here. Have fun and play harder.

Well folks want to call me trash cool

All I have to say for the folks who call me trash is look across the street at 34 here in Sabre park then you get the real trash out of the world. Now I have writen letters to the managemen and called them to say what is going on and I have been ignored right along with the town clowns like they do much anyway pluss with all the neighbors that have complained also about the trailer and the useless kids and parents. Now I do hope that I get the one house that I looked at on Saturday so I can get the Hell out of this Hellhold of what the Caviliear Associates call a trailer park. The Section 233 has done squat also along with NY Government for to help anyone that fallows the rules here in the So Called Trailer Park also. Now after the past 16 almost 17 years of being here in NY nobody has don SHIT about SHIT around here to help out the folks that are left that sill try to plant flowers and other things in thier yards to make the place more friendly to other folks. Now I just turned on my computer about 12:45 pm and otherwise everything else is totally off at the power bars here in the can. I haven't even ran the washer today at all and I need to also for a few things to get caught up on. Since it is a nice day outside I could hang another comfy out on the line and wont do it becuase I need the break and so does the washer around here. This is what happends when you have fallen behind and folks who don't care how much the bills go up with them being here altogeather. I will never see a Damn dime out of the person who ran up the bills for me nor out of the park when the Lazy Bastard is working for them again. That is what I get for paying into the system and The Lazy Bastard can work off the books for Cavilier Associates and collect full blown welfare on top of it all. And NY State wanders why they are so broke as to the tune of 9 billion dollars in a deffacet. Gee if they thought of throwing half the folks that collect welfare in this God forsaken state that can work and make good money gee its time to revamp the system and a few other things while they are at it all. Now I will admit that I got smart this time and had extra money pulled back and could still eat off of what my Husband brought in off of 1200 dollars a month and not ask for any type of asistance from the government at all I see the problem here. It also helps to know what you are doing to keep the place stocked in food and other items also while you are at it. See being a truckers wife it does help somewhat to know what you use for the most part around the place in food and other items. When I can sit here and say that I eat alot of rice and pasta I mean it also right along with alot of chicken also. Now for this past Saturday I have got another 2 whole chickens for 79 cents a pound to feed the household. Gee there is a pop themomitor to tell ya when the dang thing is done and for about 4 dollars later for 4 -10 folks for dinner I wander why I got the birds in the first place. And about another 4 dollars for the trimmings and side dishes for the dinner nobody goes hungery out of my place at all. Now for trailer 34 here in Sabre park all they feed the children are Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches and that is it. The only hot meal they get is at school and that is if they make it to school at all. Otherwise the children are begging the neighbors for a hot meal eather way and the CPS workers have dropped the balla round here. Trailer 34 is another one that needs to be thrown off of welfare also since thier father makes enough for 4 people to eat and pay the bills in the household also. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Saved some money yesterday

Yesterday I saved about 19 dollars in coupons at Walmart. The poor woman behind me seen the mini stack that I had and said well you won't save enough off the bill to make a differance anyway. Well the gal thatwas behind me was shocked to say the least when she heard the beginning total and the ending total. I told here that the beer that I picked up was for free after the coupons. I had the whole line in laughter with that one. I still have to put away most of the stuff from yesterday since I had walked thru the door and get a phone call saying I will be there within 45 min. The truth of it is I am so use to being alone during the week that it shocks me when my Husband comes home in the middle of the day and week. So here I am it is Wensday and I need to get some things done around here today and it is all of the easy stuff to get done. Around my place the hard part is the bathroom and changeing the bed sheets. Other than that it is smooth sailing around here by the middle to end of the week around here. My husband looked in the sink and said to me is that all of the dishes that you used??? I coulden't help but to laugh about it all. I do not go thru that many dishes to do them every day while he is gone so I wait for acouple to 3 days to start in on them. This is why I do not mind being alone for the week at all around here. Well I may as well get the morning rutine going and get as much done as I can around here before the afternoon comes in with a bang. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well a depressed household

The dog and bird are mad that my Husband came and left already today. What else could I do except give him a Hot cup of Coffee and chocolate for the rest of the week. I am not so depressed about it as the dog and the bird are but, that is me. Alot of the work has been done and my Hippy asked what did I do since he left on Sunday. Now if that is not a death wish then what is around my place. Also what I did looks clam compaired to what a good friend did and I had no part in it at all now. I was worried about a parent and so on, on me and what if it were my own family. I will be the first one to admit I have heart and nothing else with it. After I got here to NY State my heart got bigger and other things shrunk. Well All have to understand my Mother is older and what if it was my parent who fell out of bed and broke bones. If you see something wrong do not hessitate to pick up the phone then if the place they are at does not do what you want or hear the answers you want call the County Health board then the State health board. Take a stand for the elderly when You Can I know I will be there soon enough and so will other folks of my age. I am 35 and noticeing things just now. I hope my step Children otherwise known as my own Children pop off with what is right and wrong to make thier lives better the next time they are in the Hospital eather way. I really LOVE all the kids that I have had in my care and other wise in life. I hope I have instilled in the children that I cared for have a HEART and fallow it it will ease ya later on in life. As 3 have found out in life on thier own and said what is on thier mind. My one Daughter I don't know about since I have not heard from her and I know I am a Grandmamma eather way at age 35. I wish My Ayla would get a hold of me eather way since I have not moved at all in 16 years of my life. I can thank her Daddy for that one. Her supposad Mother may have not gave MY GIRL stubillity, but her father is stable and has been in the past almost 18 years with me. Just becuase, some folks can't stand up to Out Laws doesen't mean I can't at all. Trust me the Out Laws that are in my family they know I am blunt and true to the point and that is it. I have no reason to lie or beat around the bush at all. That is why I say my friends and who I consider family are close to me and My Own Daughter with the new marrige is NO DIFFERANT at all. I gave her a look and she moved and the poor child hardly knew me at all. At the time she was way to young to be in my own kitchen and so on Alya would know this while I was cooking. Now if she asked Ma would ya teach me your secreats on things she would get it. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well today can only get better

It can only get better today. I have to do some shopping today with the coupons. Now I am really thinking of going home(Illinois). I was asked from a dear friend when I am coming home again. Well put it this way alot of heat and I may as well pack shorts and regular T-shirts. That is the fun part about the heat around there. Anyway another reason to start saveing money for the next couple of months also. Well between of the not knowing and the needing to get home, home is out ruleing everything again. My Mom had to laugh the last time I was in becuase I had a hard time rinseing my hair. At this point I am thinking even more coupons and a few other things around here to go even cheaper. I can get some stuff down in Illinois cheaper than up here of course. Never fails pluss most of my coupons are good down there also. Well today is one of them days of lets see how far I can get also around here. I am still cleaning today and will hit the store this morning while I am at it all. That is the fun part about the whole thing. Also with all the coupons the cashiers will freek out at any store that I go to anyway today. Well at least they don't have to lift anything for about 5 min. with me going thru the line. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Shakeing my head

Most of the list is done there are things that just need to be done as of yet. Well I will be working on the rest of the list for this week also and a few other things. Niether phone has gone off niether since lastnight. It is nice that I can sit here and plot still without being bothered. Since it has been raining out even the dog doesen't want to go out. She has been sleeping for most of the day. As I sit here I have just flipped the T.V. on and what they have on HSN I got the gal beat all to heck for cheap meals in the Magazine. I am shakeing my head on it all around here. For alot of stuff you can cook on the cheap without the pressure cooker even. Now I will admit that the rice cooker was a good investment even since I do eat alot of rice. In my place I go for the quick and easy meals that do not cost an arm and a leg pluss the first born. As I tell folks it is not hard at all once you get use to it all. I have been asked just recantly on about being a housewife alsoand you must be really broke around where you live at. Well Since we are not as broke as folks think we are I do work in the home cleaning and running my own thing also. I know folks who both work out of the home and they are broker than I am. Miss management of the money on thier end. Then agian I do not go after the most expensive things out at the grocery store now. There is alot of rice, ground meats, chicken, flour, onions, garlic, and soups in my place. Pluss alot of pasta. I do have canned veggies in the place for the winter time. That is me and runts for neighbors also. This is why I am hopeing for a better place in a better neighborhood so I can start planting again. Then this way I can do more also and figure out all the bills also from here to there. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well another one

I am not happy about my cable bill going up another 50 dollars at all. We will see what happends next month on it when I see the statement if someone ordered pay per view stuff on me. Then I will have to hut the lazy son of a pup down and beat him totally after I find out. I may order one ppv(pay per view) once a year around here and it is about 50 dollars for what I do order here. Well worth the money and to see a blood bath once a year. I do not care if you say that the WWE is fake. I have seen folks get really hurt off the pay per views to the point where they had to have thier noses reconstructed along with sinuses and knees redone. IF you think that is fake then start asking in what happends. That is why there is do not try this at home statement also at the beginning of the programs that they have. Anyway at least I can say that I figured out the user name and the passwords to the bill once again. One of the bills that I do pay on line besides my insurance. The cell phones come directly out of my account once a month. It saves me at least 30 dollars a month doing it this way. With the stamps gas and a few other charges on top of it all. So you may want to check into the pay on line or directly taken out of the account to pay bills. The only 4 that I havent bothered with is the water, gas, power, and lot rent. And Cavalier Associates will never see that out of me PERIOD. The scum suckers get enough money out of me once a month they don't need any more out of me at all. And that is why there are huge pot holes in the park when you come in enough to swallow the mini van to say the least around here. As one owner said the streets have been done, well how come the pot holes are worse than the City Of Niagara Falls around here in Sabre Park is the question of the day. The place that I looked at ok the street is beat to snot but at least there's not crators big enough to swallow the mini van and a Tractor for an 18 wheeler. Ok I will admit my Lot Rent is going to 355 in April of this year. Nothing has been done except the Fema trailers that they all bought for the park. The pot holes haven't been filled and I have to fix my own drive way according to the Cavilier Associates. It says to maintain not fix the Drive way. The end of the drive has collapsed with major crators comeing up in the drive way. I refuse to pay the rent and fix the drive. Also some renters are able to leave thier dogs out 24/7 around here and nothing is said to them at all about thier dog barking all hours of the day and nothing is done to them at all. Pluss some let thier Children just run and don't care what they all do also. Now you know why I want to get out of Sabre Park eather way. I have been here for 16 years and it has got alot worse in the past 10 years. Now it is just to the point of I have drug out my .45 and I also need zap collars for some folks around here. I was going to sit on a desk today and I just don't feel up to it at all at this point in time. The maintanace workers seen what I have to put up with during the day and it is not my dog not the dog behind me that barks at every little thing that moves. Today has been fairly quiet around here except the dog across the street barking its head off at the guys. One of the Fema trailers are going up across the street from us. Oh well guess that some have to park on thier own lots when they sell the trailer. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well found out a bit more

Well I thought that the past 2 weeks were brutal. Well it got worse and Thank God that some folks came home off of the working trip got home this past week. Now I really refuse to go to Mt. St. Mary's for anything. I know there are ways to keep someone in the hospital and some have thier ways of doing it also. I know a couple of ways and I will not say in how at this point becuase the one was in the right to keep someone in just in case. Well the person that was at the garbage pit hospital, got relesed and went home when she needed to be still in with the few things that were going on still. Anyway one of my kids are feeling like I am also you do right and be honest about things and we get tourched. Well I should have listened to the poor girl in the first place and I shoved the feeling down like I normally do. Something was said and I told her no go do what you had planed for get your mind off of what's going on at this point. So I missed a Funeral once again. Since I do not get the paper at all and do not always look at the Obituaries on line while I am at it all. It would have helped if someone called that I thought was a friend. Just becuase the guys wife and I are not talking doesen't mean that I am not talking to him also after all that has happend and said after January. Last straw was pulled put it that way. Anyway at this point today is going to busy to say the least and I am not going anywhere and I don't care for who it is and what is going on. I am takeing a me week per say. Just to make sure I am ok around here and to still play catch up to what I ignored during the past weeks around here. I just do not like being on the go that much at all. At this point I have a bit of laundery left and that will get done today and alot of other things around here also. Now that I have the time to do alot more around here it will get done. Well with like lets say the laundery here my Husband doesen't mind me getting that done once a week at all. Then this way I have enough for at least 4 full sized loads. That is how I operate for the most part becuase, I am still use to the old washer also. Now with the auto fill I do not have to worry about it that much now. It is a nice feature on the washer along with the H.E. I use less water anyway. Also I do not have the 90 dollar water bills at all between the washer and a few other tricks that I pull. The old washer would flood out the bathroom floor all the time one of the sencors was bad for the rince cycle so I had to keep an eye and an ear out for it. Also I do not flush the commode all of the time while I am at it all. Since there is only me here for 5 to 6 days a week sometimes more and less depending on the runs of the truck, I can go 3-4 times without flushing. Pluss to top it off I run 2 sinks of hot water one with dish deturgant the other just plain out water and when I am suddzing up in the shower I turn off the water untill I am done with that also. There are ways to save money all the way around here. Some of the things that I do may not work for everyone that is out there also. There is no right or wrong way of doing things at all. Just like I call the companies sometimes to see if I can get a better deal on thier service if not oh well if so cool beans for me. It seemed like every 3 to 6 months I was calling the regular phone company to see what they could offer me at a better price. Untill the one repair guy told me it was in my head and to stop the madness. Well the company got thrown out of my place and I worked off my cell phone. I had been useing the cell phone anyway for 7 months by then anyway becuase I could depend on the clarity and maybe a lost call once a month. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Normal Sunday

Now I can start laughing becuase it is a normal Sunday around here. Clipping coupons, paperwork being done, and leftover laundery also on top of everything. Now to just get hubby out the door and back to work for the week so I can start on my work once again. My list has just grown by another page of the to do list around here. And some folks that want to over extend me why around here. Well the Hubby finally realized that he was a part of the madness of the past 2 week around here. Now he won't be so quick to say well my wife will do it all after this one. I have done alot over Friday granted and this week will be madness once again for cleaning and a few other things also. I was teasing my Husband and asked if I could go to the grocery store again and use the coupons. He was like take the coupons and I'll get mad and started laughing about it. Well some are like well why do you get the Sunday paper every week anyway. I need the change for the Husband so he can run all week. I hand him money once a week for coffee and a few other things. Anyway with the person that I threw out of here last month the bills went up 100 dollars that I have to pay extra on that I will never see the money from the person who ran them up on me. Now that is not includeing the 300 dollars in groceries that the Lazy Bum went thru in 3 weeks also. What gets to me is that it was more work on me and no offers for to help me out nor to say that he was even sorry about what he did. Then some wander why I am quick to blow gaskets around here. Well after this no more folks are staying at my place at all. I am just wandering in how many lazy people are out there that do not need the system that are on it at this point in time also. Well that is part of the problem around here in NY State anyway. The ones of us that use the coupons and try to be cheap get screwed and can't go get help becuase of the other folks that took over. So here the ones of us have the food bill for the most part under controle and use the coupons around here to save even more on that budget and a few other things in the households. At this point in time most of the week everything is mainly off and will stay off also even more so now. That is what gets to me I feel like I am paying for the whole park for the water bill and the power bill around here. What has helped me out around here is that I shower everyother day and the new washer for the water bill. The washer has helped with the power bill also. Extended spin on the washer has helped also. I opened up the power bill today and about fell over at 130 this month (a month behind is how they all do it). I have not ran anything at all around here. When you try to explain something to a really lazy person on why to start unplugging stuff and why you don't want the phantom power going on and Out of his mouth was "I do this all the time at my house" and "Why are you hollering about it now". Gee you are in NY State now not the territory of the US. Now you know why I have blew up and then some around here. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

I started my list

I have started my list for the week and I have alot more to do than the past 2 weeks that have went by me in a blur. What has helped is that I have leftovers and still do for part of this week also. I am still swinging about the can being this bad still. So I will be cleaning for most of the week. I am hopeing that the next 2 weeks I will be cleaning my own house and not a can. I am not getting my hopes up for squat while I am at it also. Well what can I say in the past 3 years I have seen way to many places and coulden't afford none of them or they were way to far out from anyplace at all. Anyway I have a system in plan for the next year after the past 2 weeks and I will start going cheaper slowly and start adding things to do that are cheap/frugal also. Alot of it has to fall on me while I am home alone around here during the week. Some of it is that I am not going anywhere even if it kills me for this week. I told my Husband I am takeing a me week this week and tough don't care and this is how it all is. The answer I got was but,but,but. I must have shot him a look that he knew I wasen't playing at all. So for this week things will get done weather people want me to or not and I will declutter as much as I can for this week. And I will be takeing an inventory of the place and wait on alot of things once again. I am also plotting on alot around here this week to get things done around here. Some may laugh at my list of things to do around here and I check off the things that I have done during the day and week around here. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Got to see a place today

Well I went out to se a place today. It is a lot bigger than where I am at at this point in time. It would be nice to see the front of the dollar store than the back of the building. One draw back is oil heating and hot water. If it gets me out of the Hell hold trailer park from rotten neighbors I can put up with not being able to take in breath at all. A good thing of where the place is located at is that I can still walk to alot of places if I do not feel like driveing. If I get the place I will have new neighbors hawlking around the place when I cook also. Oh well at least I will not be putting up with children and adults who need shock collars on a constant basis and begging for a hot meal around where I want to go to. That is what I will like about it. It also seems to be a quiet neighborhood. Anyway I am looking forward to all the bills to go down in the household one day also. That is the dream that I have been holding out for. Also to have a wood burner just in case if the power goes guess what I still have heat and can cook also. Well I still have cans and bottels in the van that I haven't took in as of yet for the wood burning stove. I still have a jar fund going for that and wait untill I get enough togeather to make it worth my while to go in and cash in the nickles. I do not mind the wait at all to get something that I want. As I say a penny to a nickel at a time to save up every little bit helps around here in my book. Most of what I have I have saved and scrimped to get around here. That is what some folks haven't realized thru the years at all. That when I work out of the home and get a "Real" paycheck yes I do get more for the household or can hold. And pull more back while I am at it. It is a thing that I have. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Quiet start to the day

It is a very quiet start for this morning and I like it. Now I have plotted the day out and really do not mind it so much at all. Since I busted my toush yesterday on alot of the house work around here I may have 2 loads of laundery left for today. The dishes can wait untill my Husband leaves tomarrow also. Since I have another 3 weeks untill some of the family comes up it makes it abit easier on me to get the rest of the can cleaned up and on the go. Pluss one more trip up to the grocery store for everything. Yes I have planned out the meals for all month and for when folks show up around here also. Well my Niece has figured out right quick that I am very blunt to the point and walk on the cheap side of life. I have had a few ask me to shop with them also while I am at it. I am happy that I did wait on some things at the store the last time I was there. I will also have homemade sauce also while I am at it all. Now for the sauce it will be cheaper than the store bought and much better while I am at it. Well I did get a turkey baked in the crock pot this week and have been feeding off of it for the past 2 days around here. I thought some were gonna have a fit about it. It really came out good. The trick is to put a lemon in with it and baste the bird also for the crock pot. When I can sit here and say that when other folks that come over and eat I do not say where I got the food from untill dinner is over with. Now if a spouse is one of them picky people and do not like the knock off stores, hide the boxes and a few other things. What I use to do was cut one of the guides off the back of the box and throw it into a bin pluss mark what it was in the bin. It has saved me alot of space in the cabnets and alot of grief also while I was at it all. Alot of the groceries that I picked up nobody knew where I got it from unless they seen the Aldi or Save A Lot recipt. I had to laugh sometimes becuase, there were several folks who refused to eat food from the places. When I go to Aldi to shop and know I am low on cat food I pick it up. My cat is the non pickiest cat around that I know of. What can I say about it. At least I know that I have food in the place and the bills are paid. Now for alot of it I do shop with coupons out in the stores that take them and get the sales also. I will start shopping at the normal stores since they double the coupons up to 99 cents. There are some things I have to get at Walmart becuase they are cheaper. Ok folks have fun and play harder.

Well at least I won't have to bother

Next week everyone I mean EVERYONE is on thier own. I am takeing a me week starting today. OF course the housework will be done along with other things around here. Some folks have to realize that I can not be everywhere at once at all. And after getting somewhat hollard at last weekend for not being able to keep up with everything in the household and being 3 places at once and my body gave out. That is what I get for my Dear Husband saying oh My Wife will do it all. Now I will say no from now on around here. When I get stuck without help per say unless I pay for gas in another car and knowing when the dog has to go out and the bird gets up around here I can not stay all night everynight up at the hospital nor can I ignore the cleaning also. I have worked for most of the day to clean and barely made a dent in the place today. This is what happends when I take dang near a week off and run on the rat mobile of life. Pluss I have noticed "Holes" in the one floor at the hopital also and became even more frustraited about the week. The other was that I was getting nowhere in the household and haveing to clean the carpets more and more. I coulden't get to the dog fast enough or the poor thing coulden't get me up so she could go out. Along with haveing a miagrain along with gas. Where is everyone where I need them nowhere to be found at all. I have been realizeing why I stay to myself also without anyone around nor talking to anyone for days on end while I am at it. Working on the blog and being cheaper than snot around here is what I have been doing pluss getting more recipies up and going for a trial run. Some folks haven't blamed me for not being here nor around for the past 10 days at all. Ok folks have fun and play harder.

Long day

Well lastnight I diden't have to go up to the airport. I diden't even call my Niece back while I was at it. Now I get the long day of cleaning for most of the day. My Husband will have to get 2 other seats out of the storage unit also since he put them out of reach on me. All I can do about that is laugh and kick his toush to get the seats for me. At this point I am wandering what my Niece will take with her at this pont in time. I woulden't mind at all if she took the 2 cabnets that are in the kitchen and the main room at this time I would just have to rearange everything again and figure out what else can go out of the buckets that are left here in the can. Well I am not gonna worry about it yet untill they all get up here and go from there. Anyway at this point my goal is to get most of the can clean once again around here. Last week was the bummer I am still doing abit at a time and I haven't been feeling good on top of it. Well what else can I do about it all. Clean when I can and try to recover for the rest of the day. With alot of us homemakers we push to the point of being sick and we all have to do more to keep up. Alot of what I will be doing today will be in the kitchen and main room out of the can. Alot is just going away and I do not care anymore. I have came to the point once again that I have to much stuff around here. Some will just go others are going to get a new home also while I am at it all. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

A slackers day

I haven't done much today at all. I need to start in on some more housework then I will not be so over loaded next week trying to get things done. Pluss I have to be at the airport tonight at midnight for a couple. Well I have been feeling bad since Sunday and part of it is gas and the other part is I was not sure if I was starting another lung infection this week. That is the last thing I need is to spread something around and Kill someone. I would never forgive myself if that happened to the folks I was trying to take care of also. So I hope that I am over reacting to something that I dont have. I also found my friends gas that she was suppose to have also. I have it (giggleing). That is part of the reason I have been feeling bad since Sunday. Anyway at least I am getting there now and I am about ready to get to work around here. Have fun and play hard.

Wandering why again

Here I sit and I just got out of Walmart and had over 20 dollars in coupons for the trip up there. Now I know that the one neighbor gets over 300 dollars in food stamps a month for 2 adults and 2 children. I just don't get in how the parents can sit there and feed thier children Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwiches all of the time. Not only that the girl starts crying to neighbors that she wants a hot meal and is sick of the sandwiches all of the time. Well gee it is not responsable to feed the child niether. After this child sat there and told me to my face that I hate her also. After I was coming down the street they coulden't get the dog in quick enough and it was comical seeing 2 grown adults falling up the stairs with the dog. I am at the point of I just do not care anymore. I will be cheaper than snot just so I can get out of here and into a regular house. The funny thing about it is that I will win eather way around here. The pot holes are worse here in the park than they are out in the City of Niagara Falls. Some are big enough to swallow an 18 wheeler here in Sabre Park. Ok it is still March around here. The road construction has already started all over the place becuase the weather conditions are right. Here we get told oh they are fixed if you call the slum Landloards for Saber Park Associates LLC. Now I can say I can hold the Lot Rent untill things get fixed and put it into an esscro account Legally. If more folks did this maybe the slummers would start paying mind. At this point if you reffer a friend. I woulden't put squat on my worst enemy around here. Anyway at least with myself now I can go cheaper than snot more so than my neighbors that are on the system at this point. This is what gets to me about NY State is that 90% of the folks that are on the Welfare and SSD systems are able to work and provide for the families that they are in around here. Now saying this I know several folks who are just plain out lazy people here in this state. Like across the street from me the person who gave birth too 2 children refuses to work at all and not take care of the children in the household while she is at it. I do not refuse to work at all. I will take everything and anything to get out of the household to work and get extra money coming in. Pluss what I am doing now from home. When folks say oh the drinking is what made me disabled is B.S. in my book. I can say this becuase some worked to have free rent everymonth in the prodjects around here. My Supposad brother in law is one of them people. Right along with the thing he married after she had beed caught haveing sex with a minor about 10 years ago if not longer now pluss convicted of sexual abuse on top of it. I was mad and never ever leave squat in thier care at all. There are also minors in the the neighborhood that they live in. So you never know who lives next to you at all. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well I got out

I did get out for a bit yesterday. Now to really start cleaning my can up and I need it dang near spotless around here. Family is coming up in about 2 weeks. The funny thing is I am not saying who at all to anyone around at all. THe family that is coming up also wants to start trying my cooking. Pluss I want to see the squirt balls reaction to the bird also. The cat has learned her lesson on babies don't get to close becuase she got her wiskers kinked and they haven't been right since then. Gar never scratched the baby all she did was grunt and you could almost hear her say that Ann was right in keeping me away. Anyway at least things will start calming down here for this week and upcoming week. So I can start in on my place and keep going with it all. And the laundery will start getting easier around here since I can start hanging it out once again. Oh well at least I will keep busy for a good bit of the day around here. Now for today the computer will be on for most of the day. The radio helps with cleaning sometimes around here. I am getting so excited when a week and a half comes up. I am not ready to sit on the managements desk as of yet and I am getting there. I have to remember I am paying an extra 10 dollars a month to hear the dog bark across the street. That will be the last time that I say anything to the management and I will start takeing care of somethings around here myself. All my Husband said was dont go to jail over the others stupidity. Who needs to go to jail when I can throw the camara up in the window and start filming my yard. That would be enough to get my point across to alot of folks. Pluss send copies of the rules of the park along with a cd of film and pictures of what I have to deal with around here along with other folks have to deal with. Now with my raido going I will only turn it up loud enough to where I can hear it and not the rest of the neighborhood. I do have 2 sets of speakers hooked up to the computer and I only use one set of speakers and I do not turn on the base speaker that often to matter also. Anyway at least I can say that I have the time now to do alot more than what I did have last week. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Dang the luck

Well I wish the Hippy would have put the pictures in the monster of the park. Becuase I would show ya in how the Slum Loard work around here. Now in the rules of the park I have to maintain the driveway not repair it. Well I am not spending 6 grand to fix my drive when I pay my lot rent every month at all and the pot holes/craters in the streets around here in the park. I also found out that the management has lied once again to me and I am so fed up I am looking for my silentser for my .45 to put the poor dog down across the street. Now here I am I am following the rules of the park my dog hardly barks PERIOD and is let out to only relieve her self like many dogs on the block and what makes 34 special except a lick job for the management here in the park. Pluss I caught the boy at 34 skipping again. Gee My tax dollars are Hard at work with that Boy for only going to school for a month out of the 6 so far. Pluss there are another 3 months of school left out of the year in the Niagara-Wheatfield school district here in NY State. That is with the snow days included. But then again what do I know since I am supposadly the Stupid House Wife according to the Supposad Father at Trailer 34 Liccata here in Sabre Park in Niagara Falls NY. Here I am cooking full meals for my family and the Parents of trailer 34 Sabre park can only give both Children Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwiches for all 3 meals becuase they refuse to cook for the Children in the household. Pluss it is bad when a child goes to school with the Same Thing on for All 5 days of the School Week. What ever happanded to when the Children wore the one outfit for a day and changed everyday pluss had a Bath or shower almost every day during the week. I was not wandering why the girl did not have any friends at school at all. With the Girls Attatude and not being clean I diden't wander why at all. Now here I know my one neighbor can not cook to save her own toush but at least something is hot on the table every night of the week for her daughter, and yet the Girl from 34 begs to be fed one hot meal eather way from another parent once a week and begs the other neighbors to have a plat eof food so she can eat a hot meal also around the neighborhood there is a problem that has generated. Now I have called CPS (Child Protective Services) myself at least 5 times over an 8 month Period and nothing is done to say the least except it is one of them cases that are swept under the carpet and life goes on. I have refused afte the first 12 months that they moved in to feed this child and I got that "Oh She Hates Me" syndrome. I am sorry it is not my place to care for the child when she is not in my household. Pluss I do not get paid for the food the child eats niether on top of it all. I have a hard budget so I do not go back on the system around here like The Child's Parents have and kept on the system also. I have carefully planed out my grocery budget for the month after I pay all the bills and a few other items that are needed for the household. The ones who work hard to make thier way should be Pissed Off at the ones Who Take Advantage Of the Welfare System and keep on getting benifets that they do not desirve at all. When Lot Rent is going to be 355 a month here as of April 1st and the utilities are not included and some Parents I use the term Lightly Around here Just don't care weather the children are fed or not. I know in my place that when Children are here they are fed well and have a well ballanced meal eather way for Dinners and otherwise. I remember when my own Mother would fix just Veggies for dinner. I ate eather way without question and never complained by the end of the month. This is why I am not a huge brussle srpout person to this day. I have learned form my Childhood how to streach out the food dollars and make it work in my own household. I also had a wanderfull Teacher to show me the ropes also. I have said there is the crock pot and gee guess what It works for every kind of meal out there in the true world and is the best at cooking everything form beef to poltery to almost anything that you can cook in the household. I do have a dang Turkey dethawing in the sink and a meat momitor to check the temps out to make sure it is done. The momitor is a thermomitor. It all works out to see if the meats are done. Start the main dish and forget it untill you remember to take it's temp. I have walked on the cheap side for all 3 meals here in the household that it has kept every child happy even when it cost an arm and a leg for a dozen eggs for the joint. I will make Pancakes for dinner one night and the leftovers go into the freezer for a quick breakfast one morning. THat is what I get for haveing at least 2 5lb bags of flour in my household also. There are alot of things I do keep on hand for endless possiblities for dinner ideas in the can. One is jazz up the ideas for each meal of the day. Pizza for breakfast or meatloaf one and work with it all. You would be suprized in what goes with eggs anyway or biscuts. The husband that I am married to now loves it when I start going gung ho with leftovers and mean it all. And with all the children that I have sat for when thier parents were to Damn lazy to pick them up from the night before were greatfull to eat in my place leftovers or not. One of the girls that I sat for is like I am craveing your pasta sauce again. I asked if she wanted a straw for the quart of sauce and we all laughed about it. It has been the running joke line in the family for years and I snaged the recipie for the latest version and refused to give it up. All I can say is extra onion and garlic in the sauce and I have the family recipie. Anyway at least I have kept my wits about me in the past week around here. Also some folks know about it and when I do snap it will be for all the right reasons. The lot Rent is due once a month and I can hold that back also in protest between the streets and the stupidity and trashyness of the neighbors. Well that is what I get for reading the section 233 for the NY State laws on the Trailer Parks around here. And I am sure that they will file late with NY State also this year again if they even file the new rules that went into affect around here. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

I got enough sleep last night

Well after yesterday thretening the park the dog across the street is gone. It was so quiet lastnight that I could not even believe it. I slept pretty good for a change. So today I will try to get motivated to really clean the can today. After all said and done I did not do much yesterday when I got back home, becuase the ride just drained me. Not only that when a dog is barking constantly at every little thing you end up tired and mad. Anyway today will be a fairly cheap day around here and I am hopeing to get alot done with a short amount of time around here. When my poor Husband starts the mad mummble I know I was streached thin last week altogeather around here. Yesterday I was done and just mad. It diden't help that I had a gas pocket still that hurt on top of everything. I feel alot better today and will be doing as much as I can around here to clean up the place. With myself slacking last week I will be paying for it this week of course. I got hollared about the lines outside yesterday also. I laughed and said that it was the least of my worries and if the kids and adults get caught in them not my problem. I do not mind someone shortcuting thru my yard as long as they are quiet about it all. When I say that I am short I only stand about 5'2 and had the lines lowered becuase of it. I will be useing the lines more and more here without a problem. When I go to hanging laundery normally it is a weeks worth of stuff being washed. Depending on what it is. With the towles I can wait for a bit longer becuase I have a ton of them in a bucket (storage bin). I get at least 4 loads of dark towles up and then get them thrown in the washer. Even a friend agreed with me she doesen't mind hanging out the laundery in the warm weather. It gets us both out into the fresh air long enough to clear our minds. And think of the next thing to clean or work on eather way. What I can't wait for is to get the windows back open and get fresh air in the can. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Wandering what to do

Ever since I had Ploricy as a freshman in High School my left lung and rib cage has bothered me since then. I need to get up to the hospital and the only thing good about the meat market up there is that they all have free face masks to wear just in case. Pluss I have to think about my zoo around my can before I even bother to go anywhere anyway which alot of folks don't realize that I do not always have a helping hand like others do. That is where my head goes to spinning every so often around here. At this point I am not breathing to good and it hurts majorly on the one side. If I stop now it will not be a good thing becuase I am the only one here as normal and knowing that I am ran down and I should have listened to my sister better on Friday morning when she kicked me good over the phone. But it explains why that I have been tired lately and last night and this morning that I thought I had gas and a bad case of it. Untill I thought about the ploricy and I had a lung colapse on me also at 14 years old. At the time my future brother in law caught it and knew the signs of it. Not that I was the sickly child in school or anything. I caught it from 2 others that couldent take more time off of school like I did and went from there.

Ok I need to be

I went up to the hospital dump on Saturday afternoon. I let the person sleep that I was checking on and her Husband diden't blame me one bit. Since the poor woman was resting so peacefully at that poin I diden't want to be a bother at all. Nobody except for me can figure out why the poor woman is not doing a bowle movement gee give her solids and watch her go within 24 hrs ah DUH. I asked for an Iron Pill so I could go last time I was in. So God only knows where this poor woman will be at hour by hour anyway. When I can say that this woman has fought she has. Gotta love her eather way ya go in life. With my Husband being a chopper medic at one point from the military I take him along for machines or start calling another person eather way it helps when some have the same h2o machine. Here I am worried about 2 people and they all know about it. When I can sit here and do housework and still not take my mind off of niether one that is down sick now ya know why I am wearing thing around the can. If one gets over to the rehab part of things I will feel much easier also since I know several of the nurses over there and they know I will slip food in for folks also. I did it with my George and will do it again in a heart beat for anyone. The one charge nurse asked what I had made the sauce with and told him in not total mesurements and he said fine he ate healthy anyway in his eyes. I haven't seen someone eat like that in a long time to inhale my cooking like my George did. Anyway now you know why kind of why my week last week made my head spin. Why should this week be any differant than last. I will get some things done but not all once again by Friday when I pick up my Best Friend and her Hippy from the air port. I looked at my Husband(hippy) on Saturday and said you are driveing and I don't care. Even though I wasen't even drinking I wanted someone else to drive since I was still exsausted from the week before. My poor Hippy knew when I fell asleep in the van on the way back from picking him up Friday night that I was just wore out and beatin down. I have been barely home and my dog is finally happy that I just took the past couple of days to stay home after I droped my Husband off this morning. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Why I just don't

Well I haven't bothered to move since I haven't found a real house as of yet. Otherwise I would have told the Damn park to shove it by now. Pluss the only way to get to the park is to threaten of course and I think I have found the trick fo all mother loads around here. The worst that the Town Clowns can get me for is fireing a side arm in the town Limits and that is it. I have been running way to hard in the past week to put up with the B.S. out of anyone around here. The dog goes or another Lot Rent goes becuase of the crap of what he does. If he treats the dog like he has I can only imagine how he treats the children behind closed doors. Here I am getting back on my feet and had the dog and cat for the past 14 years around here and the bird was a fluke knowing if I diden't take him he would have been dead within a month. With 40 dollars later for the bird and knowing what to do for his seizures who else would have taken Olliver PERIOD. He has needed food and attintion and the spats have got less over a 9 month period of time while I have had him. The dog across the street has got squat over the same amout of time and barely enough food to live off of. I told the park straight out a 45 slug or you do something about it all NOW. My dog barked maybe 5 times this morning becuase she was stuck on the deck and that was it. My dog does not bark period around here becuase one of us are at the back door watching for when she wants to come in. With 3 dogs on one block they talk to each other and they all get into trouble for it. That is why there is no complaints about 3 houses dogs at all around here we maintaine our dogs Period. They don't get left out 24/7 at all. I have had dogs for most of my life and none of them got left out at all. When I was younger I had attack dogs. They were good gard dogs needless to say. Better yet I had to be there to call off the dogs when they were in the mode. Normally with the dog that I have I will stand out side or at the door and will not let this one out side longenough to cause trouble at all. When the Park rules say that a dog should not be out any longer than to relieve them selves and go back in then The dog at 34 is out 24 hrs a day and nothing is done then I start hollering and will do something. When the dog is barking at everything that moves around the block and I cant even let my own dog out and I can't even get out in the yard long enough to do what I have to do to fill the bird seeder then yes there is a problem around here. Just like on Thursday morning when I was trying to sleep. Olliver spoke up yes but the dog at 34 finished the cake when he woulden't shut up for 15 min after I uncovered the bird and told them about it the day before paying the Lot Rent. At this point in time the hour and a half drive woulden't bother me none to drop off a dog to be rid of it and hope that it bit one of the Slum Loards around here. The managements hands are tied and I know this and that is why I told her straight out you do something or a 45 slug will be inrtoduced to the dog and the owners weather they liked it or not around here. I already shot a man for a 4 million dollar bag drop deposit and never regreated it at all. I am all heart and nothing else in the world. I will do what my heart tells me even though my mind says differant eather way. I can not see an animal suffer becuase of the owner(s) of the animal who doesen't want the poor thing. Then to leave a dog out side in sub zero weather and the SPCA doesen't give a Damn when you call them on top of it all. Now alot of the time I will walk to the store if I have something light to get. It doesen't bother me at all untill a dog that is out and always barking at the least little thing that moves around here. The dog can bark and trailer 34 is getting broke into and nobody looks becuase the dog barks that much and that often. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Ok wild morning

I have already been to Collins and back at 820 am. Traffic was teribale as normal for the Buffalo area. And folks wander why I shake my head at the light traffic compaired to the St. Louis area at this time. Well after this weekend I was hopeing that the dog across the street from me would be held untill tomarrow at least diden't happen at all. If it was me all the pets and kids would have been out of my place PERIOD. Since it has been so wet out and the dog across the street has been out all winter now you know in how both parents treat thier children also while they are at it and why I want shock collars for the Children and the adults out of the place. Anyway it has been a long morning and a longer day as it has went on also. Between the dog that is across the street barking at everything that moves and me being up since 230 am it is not good around here. Last September the guy Bitched about the bird being here and squalking. Well My Bird and other animals are not outside all winter long even when it is 6 below zero outside like the Prince of the park's dog was and still is. Well after all the junk this guy has pulled he is still here and hasen't been thrown out of here. After about 6 months of a dog barking day and night when it is not your dog and the idiot says oh turn up the T.V. and keep it on all night so you dont hear the dog. At 1 pm when I know the meaningless manager is back from lunch I will give a call and raise Hell at the office. Anyway alot of things have been done around my place even though I am more tired than anything around here. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Lots of sales this week

I will hit up 2 supermarkets this week. Chicken is on sale at one and the other one has better sales for the week. Now to try to explain to folks that life goes on even if I have to run up to the dump of a Hospital. Pluss I have to let out the dog anyway. Now you know why my head was spinning last week on alot of things around here. Anyway there were alot of good coupons in the Sunday paper today that I can use. Between cat food, litter, dog treats, to other things for the place. I can say that I have a lot of differant things here it is called veriaty. I plan my meals around the main dish alot of the times. Now I can get a whole chicken and there are alot of possibilities for 3 dinners pluss lunches off of one bird. That is the joys of cooking enough to get enough off of one meal to several of them. That is why I can say I can make a meal for under 5 dollars all of the time for a family of 4. This is why I start with a plan for the day or week depending on what is going on for the day. Now for this week I have a list already and it is getting longer by the min. around here. I can say that I am on overload at this point in time and do not like it one bit. Ok I like the slower part of life in some ways. Or just hanging in the can for the most part. I am a housewife to some extent around here. What gets to me alot is that some folks swear that homemakers do not work at all. I know some men that are homemakers also. Some days I run all day long paying bills, grocery shop, clean house and alot of other things while I am at it. When some folks say that I do not work they woulden't want to work in my household. I say this only becuase they woulden't want to wash dishes by hand and deal with mini disaters as I call them. Pluss streach out the dollars also while they are at it all. We are a one car household also. IF one has the car/van the other walks to where we need to go to. Even if we need groceries. I have wheel bags to make life easier on me. Also another thing is yes I do use coupons and sales combined to make ends meet. Pluss turn off everything during the day. When folks say oh your Husband is a truck driver he makes money. Explain to me this then why are most of the companies only halling maybe 10,000 lbs if that for a flipping load. Pluss how do you think that the products get out to the stores now. There are deisel gas costs included with the prices at the stores. That is why the prices go up pluss the trucking fees and a few other things. I know some who have hollared about the prices going up around here in the area. Some are on food stamps and only bring in very little in SS checks. One person I know is so use to spending that it doesen't matter at this point if she cuts back on what she does besides pay down the debts and use coupons. I have been on both sides of the spectrum here totally broke and have enough money to get food and some other things for the can. And I did go dumpster diveing for alot of things also while I was at it to make ends meet around here. When folks ask well you are at the poverty line I say yes I am and still have enough to pay my bills and buy groceries at the same time along with other things for the household. What gets to the folks who say that is that I have more in the bank than they do by the end of the month and not in the red also. That is what most hollar about with me. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Waiting for the water

I am waiting for the dish water to somewhat cool down so I don't take the skin off my hands. I have my Husband laughing about what I am going to do for the week after. I am totally takeing a me week and staying home to clean the can. The being alone doesen't hurt me niether. After a week of hardly doing except to do vary little to keep the place going and this week coming up of doing the same thing the place already looks trashed more than normal. I have been saved from doing most of the laundery for today. Friday and Saturdays are nice for that. Now to really sit down on Monday morning to plan for the week and meal planning also while I am at it all. I have started wrighting down my list for the week of to do's this morning. When I can say that my Husband looks at me in the middle of the store and says babe while we are here get the 30 pack of beer I don't mind now. I know it's his way of my payment for trying to keep up during the last week. Now I will tell you again I do not have a totally uncluttered place and never will around here. All of the counter space is took up and utilized in my can. Pluss I have used up the dead spots in my place for storage and other things. Some are very suprized when they walk in and see how I have done things in a 700 square foot place. Storage bins help out also around here. I don't know how I made it so long without them after I started useing them about 4 years ago. I took a clear storage bin for the bathroom to hold all of the shampoo and conditioner that I had got after cleaning out my sister in laws place. It was so bad that it took us over 3 years to use everything up becuase the ungreatfull child diden't like a piticular thing and refused to use it. Well the ungreatfull Child is a totally new can of worms and I will save that for a latter date. My husband and myself had a 7 room house that was a rental (thanking my luck) in about 2 days and the kitchen was the hardest part of it all. That is how I came to know about the Brown Bottle Lysole to get the cat urin smell out of a place also. All the landloard would say was how and let me know what you did. John is a wanderfull Landloard and I still Love him to this day and appreciate him. He called us when he diden't have to when the pipes were freezeing up the one year and I told him everything was still good at the place and he might want to call this person becuase of her pipes freezeing up. Anyway with myself trying to be cheap around here and I will get it all the way done some day and look for ways to still cut costs. Cheap and Frugal go hand in hand anyway and there is no wrong or right way of doing eather one. Just like when I bought the Kitchenaid stand mixer. Was it cheap Kind of was it a frugal Purchase yes. In the long run the mixer has paid for itself and has kept up longer than the junk handmixers that I have bought or my sister in law bought for me. It is one of the long term purchases that you have to think on just like a car and a house. I think of ok will it last me for 20 years pluss and what is the pay off for the major purchase also. That is where things kick in of being frugal and cheap at the same time. Pluss can I use it everyday and will it keep up with the ware and tare of everyday life. I tried to save up for 20 years for my Kitchenaid mixer. When I was with the ex I had a harder time. With the new Husband (16years) he is just like I am, how can I save money in the long run and go from there. Some weeks are worse than others for saveing on the bills. I will say that becuase it is true. You never know what will happen from day to day.

On the run again today

I will be on the run later on today. The poor van will be so sick of me by Thursday it will hurt. Now I hope it will be good driveing tonight eather way. By tomarrow it will be back to the grind of things once again. To go see a friend at the worst Hospital in the area, I am not impressed but at least I stuck up for the patients as best as I could. I am still trying to get things done around here in my place pluss to take care of my crew. I coulden't wake up my friend since she was resting peacefully for a change. There is a couple of things she always liked for one I am very blunt, the second is that I am so light footed walking in I diden't wake her untill I sat down in a noise maker chair. Well at least I was and still am there eather way for some folks. Been there for others also and got smacked down and ignored while I was at it all. Well I figure if you are not gonna make it to someplace let me know by a phone call. The person missed a good time 3 weeks ago still has kept me giggleing over somethings that happened. Then I get a call lastnight asking if I wanted to go to Bingo. Needless to say I diden't here my phone becuase I had droped by to see if a friend was doing ok and put my cell phone on vibrate so I wouldent bother anyone on the floor of the hospital then went to Walmart and totally forgot about the phone untill my Saddle Bag started vibrateing. I diden't call the person back at all. I figure 2 can play that game altogeather. It has came down to that. So here I sit I diden't go back out and diden't want to with the wind going like it was. With me I had so much to plot out for this week that my mind has been raceing altogeather in how to get everything done again. Also I kind of got hollard at lastnight for not cleaning as well as I should have. I try to keep things picked up without a problem around here anyway and last week was just one of them weeks that the can diden't get done altogeather. Now I can say that I am hopeing for this week it will be abit easier to deal with since I do not have to drive for 2hrs right off the bat for Monday. Alot of things will be done by tonight. To start out the week. That is what alot of folks do not see out of me around here. I do so much behind closed doors that they all think that I have a wand that I wave over everything to get stuff done. Once the cans are picked up and the dishes are done then it is pretty much smooth sailing around here untill Friday early morning. With me being the only one here for 5 days a week I can let the dishes go for 3 or more days around here. Since in the past week I really haven't ate much it means less dishes that I had to do. I know I lost about 10lbs by running all over also. That leads back to what my Dear Sister told me I need to take time out for me and screw the world around me. I kind of have took time out for me while I was standing at the washer thinking I'm the nutsy one out of the bunch. Pluss not only that I was thinking of how to cut more out of the bills around here also. Lastnight was a great start and so was last Monday. Now to keep up with alot more around here and this week I can hang out the comfators out on the lines outside. It is better than 2 hrs in the dryer and still not have them dry in the middle. Alot of the times I try to put the bigger blankets in the dryer for about 10 min to defur them from the dog and cat after they have been on the line. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

It's windy out

Well it has been raining and windy out since this morning. I got out to Walmart for some things for the place. I needed chicken and a few other things also. After all said and done I am still working on the laundery as normal also. Thank goodness I diden't need any deturgant in the place. The prices have went up once again all over the place once again. I try to do everything as cheap as I can anyway. The stakes were just totally thru the roof today that was left in the meat counter. I picked up 2 packages of chicken and a pork roast. Pork and Chicken make up most of the meat in my place along with ground burger. I know some folks who want the regular stakes period in thier households wheather they can afford it or not also. Not around here. As I sit here and wander how high the prices are going to go. It seems like the more I cut back the higher the prices go around here. At least I am trying around here to cut the price of things still eather way. Also my Husband was laughing today in Walmart becuase I was looking very close at the prices. And he threatened the poor cashier that I diden't have coupons for today. I diden't at all for what I did get. I got alot of the off brands today. I got alot of dirty looks while I was shopping. What I do is look for the best deals for my place. Always have and will. Pluss the dog's food was on sale big time in what she eats. With the bird I am ok with the food and the scratch paper. I ended up with 2 big bags of seeds differant kinds of course and mixed them in a bin for him. I also have a scooper for the seed for his dish. The cat she just doesen't care what I give her to eat in dry food. The cat is the easy one out of the bunch. My Husband is the same way he isen't picky on what I cook also. That is why we both eat alot of chicken around here. When I can say that I try to cook cheap I can manage by doing so. I still have alot of rice and flour. I must admit that is what is saveing me around here. That and alot of soups also. SOme folks hollar at me for it and that is ok by me. I have to laugh sometimes about it all. I know some of my circle of friends are very picky eaters. What I slap on the table that is it eat it or starve in my place. Anyway a little planning for the meals goes along way. Pluss alot of flour also. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well after yesterday

I ended up crashing on the sofa becuase my body gave out. I diden't get to much done and my Dear Husband diden't blame me at all on the running that I ended up doing. So here I sit and started thinking about laundery again. Pluss there's alot more that I have to do before I even bother to leave today of course. About the only thing that is saveing me today is that I have the meals planned out for this weekend with leftovers for the week. Well after everything that has went on I have been very drained and my Sister was right on that I needed to take time for myself which I haven't bothered to do as of yet except sleep. I have been running so hard that I lost about 10 lbs. Well I wanted to loose the weight anyway but, not like this. So at this point the housework will prevail for most of the day and I will go from there. Most of it is the pick up from the week. After alot of thought from sitting around at the Hospital for part of the week and the driveing I had the time to plot out what I could do to cut more from the budget and be cheaper than snot also. Since the better weather is coming once again it makes it abit easier on me in a way and somewhat harder in the same. I had some of the windows cracked open this week to let in the fresh air. It kept everyone happy around here. After next week I can go back to my normal of keeping off everything during the day and go from there. I am hopeing for the sun next week also so I can put out part of the laundery out at least. Some folks freak out when they see the laundery hanging out and that is fine by me. I just hope today is not totally nuts on me. The nice thing about today is that I have back up all the way and it does help out. That is one thing I miss about not haveing my Husband here all of the time. Also now I can go without a problem all day and night around here and do what I have to do to make it. Pluss I can work for the 15 min and sit for 15. Stuff gets done quicker around here when I do that instead of all at once. Ok folks have fun and play harder.

I am glad I made phone calls

It helps when I have so many sisters and brothers in the world. Even my husband yelled at me for what I did. Well I did what was Morally right and started talking and told what went on. I had to for the safty of other patients on the floor. Pluss I can't stand for someone suffering at all becuase of the B.S. of the night. I don't care in how someone is feeling if you don't want stuff to be known say it out in the parking lot not in the building. Sometimes a miagraine is a good thing. Folks don't always know with how I am except when you know me well. Last night my eyes were swollen and I knew as my eyes crossed I knew I had problems. Pluss the glair when I drove home I knew I was in toruble but, coulden't shake what the one nurse said and she was in the right also. I did notice that one. Pluss I knew it was illegal for me to touch the bed pan from a person anyway. And not seeing the chart for the person on what I had done I had no clue as if they were monitering or not for the out take. So I voiced my concerns to the head of the place where I noticed. That is all I could do and I told them the one nurse that was ragged for last night I dident want her into trouble at all, she just confirmed what I did notice. And that is what I told the person that of what I noticed. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Why should I when

Now last night I switched out a bed pan when there were at least 6 Lazy Ass People over at Mt. St. Mary's when I got in and before I left at 7 pm. The one nurse was spread pretty thin becuase of Lazy Ass people on the floor. The poor girl also freaked out when I wasen't there also. What does this tell you about the nurseing system at some places. I refuse to go into the cathloic health system all togeather at this point. I have to agree with my Sister who works for a Major Health Provider at this point that I shoulden't have to becuase of Lazyness and or lack of Money. Be thankfull you work PERIOD around here in Western NY. At this point I should be home takeing care of my own Mother since she is in the hospital per say also. When I say home is meaning as in Illinois. I may be the squirt out of the bunch but, still need my Momma for advice. So now I am spitting mad and will start as of tonight do what is right or a bed pan will get dumped on a Lazy Ass nurse PERIOD. I admire still to this day Both of my Ex Sister in Laws Becuase they both are great nurses along with a few others in the world. Pluss I called the big guns out also to go with me. hey all thought that I was mean and nasty they haven't ran into my Husband as of yet. The Sargent in him will break out PERIOD and some will walk off the shift. That is what I get for being married to a chopper medic. Pluss after last night after what I over heard I don't blame 7 of the girls being PISSED OFF ON THE 5TH FLOOR OF ST. MARY'S AT ALL. When some are in the right Damn It I will stick up for ya.

Well I had to

I asked and the nurses at the on hospital I will remind my husband to send me to send my toush to the city one. What got to me today is that I ended up doing what the damn staff should have been doing for who I was visiting. Within 4hrs I grabbed up a bed pan pluss the pad on the bed and a few other things while I was there. At this point I am so tired that it is not even funny. I got some stuff done around here but, not much. The sofa and myself have been best of buddies for the past 2 days. It is wierd in how some things happen. Anyway I got home tonight and the pets are plain out mad at me. So at this point when things start calming down around here once again I can stay home more. Pluss not only that I will be looking harder at the place and make even more cuts. Ok folks have fun and play harder.

Long night

Well at least I was there lastnight. My place fell apart around here. Well under the Laws Of The Earth as I call them it was and still is worth it. I at least got to read and make sure that everythings ok. All I could do was laugh becuase the person that I was sitting with is feeling a bit better also. Yes I am running very late today and that is how it goes with what I did last night. I am still sitting here after I got up about an hour ago plotting for the day so the place dosen't totally fall apart. The mini walk that I took did me some good also yesterday and lastnight helped out also. I am not as tired as I thought after the feather ball woke me up this morning. Anyway with everything going down at this point all of us are out of our flipping minds and I have been calling ones to give them all updates on how things are going. With this morning I have watched the extended news while I was at it all. I am still plotting alot out around here and have to. To keep from going bonkers. With all that I have to do still and it doesen't even look like I touched the place at all. Ok folks have fun and play hard.

Well getting thiner

Well I wanted to loose the weight but not like this. I am wearing very thin and what I wouldent do for acouple of really good friends around here. After nailling the office down about the dang radio going across the street I could here the lyrics of the music of what they were playing and my T.V. was half way up at that point at 9 pm. Also I asked about the sewer smell if others were smelling it or if it was just me. Well of course no complaints were made except for me and I told them I would fix it and call the health board to top it all off. IF ya wanna see people move on fixing a problem threaten with the health board. My lot rent is always paid by the 10th of every month and then some around here. And my money is always good while I am at it. So here I sit and I will be takeing a nap here shortly since I have a long night on me. Not that I mind at all a really good friend just had emergancy surgery and I just don't care I will go all night and then some for some folks that I know. I will worry eather way and the nurses know I will sit on thier station eather way if I think something is wrong to where I am going to and treatin them with my one Uncle. And folks know I will walk the 5 miles to the hospital eather way when you are in my circle of life and a very dear friend of mine. I am at that point in time of I just don't care I am there for someone eather way. I do not mind priest's niether since I am Cathloic not by choice at all. That is how I grew up going to church at least twice a week. Pluss I thought it was cool that I could go to church and have Great Grandma right there with me for church also. God Bless the woman now where ever she is. Anyway I have got alot done around here today and I know I need to keep busy to handle what is going on around here. Realizeing that folks get older and the last person I thought would go in for surgery to say my piece of it all. Ok folks have fun and play hard becuase you never know.

I stayed home lastnight

I will be out to check in on someone today. This is a long week around here so far and it is only Wensday. Between everything Annie is so mad at me for being on the run and leaveing her alone here at home. Well at least I can get alot more done today around here. It looks like a bomb went off around here to say the least since I haven't really been home to much. What my Dear Husband doesen't realize is what all I do during the day around here at all. Yes I do get home to let the poor dog out. The bird is squaking up a storm since the sun is out again this morning also. So here I am takeing a break for this morning and likeing the quietness of my own place. Pluss I get to plot out the day this way also. Now to start getting things done around here for the day so I can leave for a bit. Ok folks have fun and play hard.